I slept for one and three-quarter hours that night, and when I
awoke I seemed to emerge from deeps of slumber which had lasted
for days. That happens sometimes after heavy fatigue and great
mental strain. Even a short sleep sets up a barrier between past and
present which has to be elaborately broken down before you can
link on with what has happened before. As my wits groped at the
job some drops of rain splashed on my face through the broken roof.
That hurried me out-of-doors. It was just after dawn and the sky was
piled with thick clouds, while a wet wind blew up from the southwest.
The long-prayed-for break in the weather seemed to have
come at last. A deluge of rain was what I wanted, something to soak
the earth and turn the roads into water-courses and clog the enemy
transport, something above all to blind the enemy's eyes ... For I
remembered what a preposterous bluff it all had been, and what a
piteous broken handful stood between the Germans and their goal.
If they knew, if they only knew, they would brush us aside like flies.
As I shaved I looked back on the events of yesterday as on
something that had happened long ago. I seemed to judge them
impersonally, and I concluded that it had been a pretty good fight.
A scratch force, half of it dog-tired and half of it untrained, had
held up at least a couple of fresh divisions ... But we couldn't do it
again, and there were still some hours before us of desperate peril.
When had the Corps said that the French would arrive? ... I was
on the point of shouting for Hamilton to get Wake to ring up
Corps Headquarters, when I remembered that Wake was dead. I
had liked him and greatly admired him, but the recollection gave
me scarcely a pang. We were all dying, and he had only gone on a
stage ahead.
There was no morning strafe, such as had been our usual fortune
in the past week. I went out-of-doors and found a noiseless world
under the lowering sky. The rain had stopped falling, the wind of
dawn had lessened, and I feared that the storm would be delayed. I
wanted it at once to help us through the next hours of tension. Was
it in six hours that the French were coming? No, it must be four. It
couldn't be more than four, unless somebody had made an infernal
muddle. I wondered why everything was so quiet. It would be
breakfast time on both sides, but there seemed no stir of man's
presence in that ugly strip half a mile off. Only far back in the
German hinterland I seemed to hear the rumour of traffic.
An unslept and unshaven figure stood beside me which revealed
itself as Archie Roylance.
'Been up all night,' he said cheerfully, lighting a cigarette. 'No, I
haven't had breakfast. The skipper thought we'd better get another
anti-aircraft battery up this way, and I was superintendin' the job.
He's afraid of the Hun gettin' over your lines and spying out the
nakedness of the land. For, you know, we're uncommon naked, sir.
Also,' and Archie's face became grave, 'the Hun's pourin' divisions
down on this sector. As I judge, he's blowin' up for a thunderin'
big drive on both sides of the river. Our lads yesterday said all the
country back of Peronne was lousy with new troops. And he's
gettin' his big guns forward, too. You haven't been troubled with
them yet, but he has got the roads mended and the devil of a lot of
new light railways, and any moment we'll have the five-point-nines
sayin' Good-mornin' ... Pray Heaven you get relieved in time, sir.
I take it there's not much risk of another push this mornin'?'
'I don't think so. The Boche took a nasty knock yesterday, and
he must fancy we're pretty strong after that counter-attack. I don't
think he'll strike till he can work both sides of the river, and that'll
take time to prepare. That's what his fresh divisions are for ... But
remember, he can attack now, if he likes. If he knew how weak we
were he's strong enough to send us all to glory in the next three
hours. It's just that knowledge that you fellows have got to prevent
his getting. If a single Hun plane crosses our lines and returns,
we're wholly and utterly done. You've given us splendid help since
the show began, Archie. For God's sake keep it up to the finish and
put every machine you can spare in this sector.'
'We're doin' our best,' he said. 'We got some more fightin'
scouts down from the north, and we're keepin' our eyes skinned.
But you know as well as I do, sir, that it's never an ab-so-lute
certainty. If the Hun sent over a squadron we might beat 'em all
down but one, and that one might do the trick. It's a matter of
luck. The Hun's got the wind up all right in the air just now and I
don't blame the poor devil. I'm inclined to think we haven't had
the pick of his push here. Jennings says he's doin' good work in
Flanders, and they reckon there's the deuce of a thrust comin' there
pretty soon. I think we can manage the kind of footler he's been
sendin' over here lately, but if Lensch or some lad like that were to
choose to turn up I wouldn't say what might happen. The air's a
big lottery,' and Archie turned a dirty face skyward where two of
our planes were moving very high towards the east.
The mention of Lensch brought Peter to mind, and I asked if he
had gone back.
'He won't go,' said Archie, 'and we haven't the heart to make
him. He's very happy, and plays about with the Gladas single-
seater. He's always speakin' about you, sir, and it'd break his heart if
we shifted him.'
I asked about his health, and was told that he didn't seem to
have much pain.
'But he's a bit queer,' and Archie shook a sage head. 'One of the
reasons why he won't budge is because he says God has some work
for him to do. He's quite serious about it, and ever since he got the
notion he has perked up amazin'. He's always askin' about Lensch,
too - not vindictive like, you understand, but quite friendly. Seems
to take a sort of proprietary interest in him. I told him Lensch had
had a far longer spell of first-class fightin' than anybody else and
was bound by the law of averages to be downed soon, and he was
quite sad about it.'
I had no time to worry about Peter. Archie and I swallowed
breakfast and I had a pow-wow with my brigadiers. By this time I
had got through to Corps H.Q. and got news of the French. It was
worse than I expected. General Peguy would arrive about ten
o'clock, but his men couldn't take over till well after midday. The
Corps gave me their whereabouts and I found it on the map. They
had a long way to cover yet, and then there would be the slow
business of relieving. I looked at my watch. There were still six
hours before us when the Boche might knock us to blazes, six
hours of maddening anxiety ... Lefroy announced that all was
quiet on the front, and that the new wiring at the Bois de la Bruyere
had been completed. Patrols had reported that during the
night a fresh German division seemed to have relieved that which
we had punished so stoutly yesterday. I asked him if he could stick
it out against another attack. 'No,' he said without hesitation.
'We're too few and too shaky on our pins to stand any more. I've
only a man to every three yards.' That impressed me, for Lefroy
was usually the most devil-may-care optimist.
'Curse it, there's the sun,' I heard Archie cry. It was true, for the
clouds were rolling back and the centre of the heavens was a patch
of blue. The storm was coming - I could smell it in the air - but
probably it wouldn't break till the evening. Where, I wondered,
would we be by that time?
it was now nine o'clock, and I was keeping tight hold on myself,
for I saw that I was going to have hell for the next hours. I am a
pretty stolid fellow in some ways, but I have always found patience
and standing still the most difficult job to tackle, and my nerves
were all tattered from the long strain of the retreat. I went up to
the line and saw the battalion commanders. Everything was
unwholesomely quiet there. Then I came back to my headquarters to
study the reports that were coming in from the air patrols. They all
said the same thing - abnormal activity in the German back areas.
Things seemed shaping for a new 21st of March, and, if our luck
were out, my poor little remnant would have to take the shock. I
telephoned to the Corps and found them as nervous as me. I gave
them the details of my strength and heard an agonized whistle at
the other end of the line. I was rather glad I had companions in the
same purgatory.
I found I couldn't sit still. If there had been any work to do I
would have buried myself in it, but there was none. Only this
fearsome job of waiting. I hardly ever feel cold, but now my blood
seemed to be getting thin, and I astonished my staff by putting on a
British warm and buttoning up the collar. Round that derelict farm
I ranged like a hungry wolf, cold at the feet, queasy in the stomach,
and mortally edgy in the mind.
Then suddenly the cloud lifted from me, and the blood seemed to
run naturally in my veins. I experienced the change of mood which
a man feels sometimes when his whole being is fined down and
clarified by long endurance. The fight of yesterday revealed itself as
something rather splendid. What risks we had run and how gallantly
we had met them! My heart warmed as I thought of that old
division of mine, those ragged veterans that were never beaten as
long as breath was left them. And the Americans and the boys from
the machine-gun school and all the oddments we had
commandeered! And old Blenkiron raging like a good-tempered lion! It
was against reason that such fortitude shouldn't win out. We had
snarled round and bitten the Boche so badly that he wanted no
more for a little. He would come again, but presently we should be
relieved and the gallant blue-coats, fresh as paint and burning for
revenge, would be there to worry him.
I had no new facts on which to base my optimism, only a
changed point of view. And with it came a recollection of other
things. Wake's death had left me numb before, but now the thought
of it gave me a sharp pang. He was the first of our little confederacy
to go. But what an ending he had made, and how happy he had
been in that mad time when he had come down from his pedestal
and become one of the crowd! He had found himself at the last, and
who could grudge him such happiness? If the best were to be
taken, he would be chosen first, for he was a big man, before
whom I uncovered my head. The thought of him made me very
humble. I had never had his troubles to face, but he had come clean
through them, and reached a courage which was for ever beyond
me. He was the Faithful among us pilgrims, who had finished his
journey before the rest. Mary had foreseen it. 'There is a price to be
paid,' she had said -'the best of us.'
And at the thought of Mary a flight of warm and happy hopes
seemed to settle on my mind. I was looking again beyond the war
to that peace which she and I would some day inherit. I had a
vision of a green English landscape, with its far-flung scents of
wood and meadow and garden ... And that face of all my dreams,
with the eyes so childlike and brave and honest, as if they, too, saw
beyond the dark to a radiant country. A line of an old song, which
had been a favourite of my father's, sang itself in my ears:
There's an eye that ever weeps and a fair face will be fain
When I ride through Annan Water wi' my bonny bands again!
We were standing by the crumbling rails of what had once been the
farm sheepfold. I looked at Archie and he smiled back at me, for he
saw that my face had changed. Then he turned his eyes to the
billowing clouds.
I felt my arm clutched.
'Look there!' said a fierce voice, and his glasses were turned upward.
I looked, and far up in the sky saw a thing like a wedge of wild
geese flying towards us from the enemy's country. I made out
the small dots which composed it, and my glass told me they
were planes. But only Archie's practised eye knew that they were enemy.
'Boche?' I asked.
'Boche,' he said. 'My God, we're for it now.'
My heart had sunk like a stone, but I was fairly cool. I looked at
my watch and saw that it was ten minutes to eleven.
'How many?'
'Five,' said Archie. 'Or there may be six - not more.'
'Listen!' I said. 'Get on to your headquarters. Tell them that it's
all up with us if a single plane gets back. Let them get well over the
line, the deeper in the better, and tell them to send up every
machine they possess and down them all. Tell them it's life or
death. Not one single plane goes back. Quick!'
Archie disappeared, and as he went our anti-aircraft guns broke
out. The formation above opened and zigzagged, but they were too
high to be in much danger. But they were not too high to see that
which we must keep hidden or perish.
The roar of our batteries died down as the invaders passed
westward. As I watched their progress they seemed to be
dropping lower. Then they rose again and a bank of cloud concealed them.
I had a horrid certainty that they must beat us, that some at any
rate would get back. They had seen thin lines and the roads behind
us empty of supports. They would see, as they advanced, the blue
columns of the French coming up from the south-west, and they
would return and tell the enemy that a blow now would open the
road to Amiens and the sea. He had plenty of strength for it,
and presently he would have overwhelming strength. It only
needed a spear-point to burst the jerry-built dam and let the flood
through ... They would return in twenty minutes, and by noon we
would be broken. Unless - unless the miracle of miracles happened,
and they never returned.
Archie reported that his skipper would do his damnedest and
that our machines were now going up. 'We've a chance, sir,' he
said, 'a good sportin' chance.' It was a new Archie, with a hard
voice, a lean face, and very old eyes.
Behind the jagged walls of the farm buildings was a knoll which
had once formed part of the high-road. I went up there alone, for I
didn't want anybody near me. I wanted a viewpoint, and I wanted
quiet, for I had a grim time before me. From that knoll I had a big
prospect of country. I looked east to our lines on which an
occasional shell was falling, and where I could hear the chatter of
machine-guns. West there was peace for the woods closed down on
the landscape. Up to the north, I remember, there was a big glare as
from a burning dump, and heavy guns seemed to be at work in the
Ancre valley. Down in the south there was the dull murmur of a
great battle. But just around me, in the gap, the deadliest place of
all, there was an odd quiet. I could pick out clearly the different
sounds. Somebody down at the farm had made a joke and there
was a short burst of laughter. I envied the humorist his composure.
There was a clatter and jingle from a battery changing position. On
the road a tractor was jolting along - I could hear its driver shout
and the screech of its unoiled axle.
My eyes were glued to my glasses, but they shook in my hands
so that I could scarcely see. I bit my lip to steady myself, but they
still wavered. From time to time I glanced at my watch. Eight
minutes gone - ten - seventeen. If only the planes would come into
sight! Even the certainty of failure would be better than this harrowing
doubt. They should be back by now unless they had swung
north across the salient, or unless the miracle of miracles -
Then came the distant yapping of an anti-aircraft gun, caught up
the next second by others, while smoke patches studded the distant
blue sky. The clouds were banking in mid-heaven, but to the west
there was a big clear space now woolly with shrapnel bursts. I
counted them mechanically - one - three - five - nine - with
despair beginning to take the place of my anxiety. My hands were
steady now, and through the glasses I saw the enemy.
Five attenuated shapes rode high above the bombardment, now
sharp against the blue, now lost in a film of vapour. They were
coming back, serenely, contemptuously, having seen all they wanted.
The quiet was gone now and the din was monstrous. Anti-aircraft
guns, singly and in groups, were firing from every side. As I
watched it seemed a futile waste of ammunition. The enemy didn't
give a tinker's curse for it ... But surely there was one down. I
could only count four now. No, there was the fifth coming out of a
cloud. In ten minutes they would be all over the line. I fairly
stamped in my vexation. Those guns were no more use than a sick
headache. Oh, where in God's name were our own planes?
At that moment they came, streaking down into sight, four
fighting-scouts with the sun glinting on their wings and burnishing
their metal cowls. I saw clearly the rings of red, white, and blue.
Before their downward drive the enemy instantly spread out.
I was watching with bare eyes now, and I wanted companionship,
for the time of waiting was over. Automatically I must have run
down the knoll, for the next I knew I was staring at the heavens
with Archie by my side. The combatants seemed to couple
instinctively. Diving, wheeling, climbing, a pair would drop out of
the melee or disappear behind a cloud. Even at that height I could
hear the methodical rat-tat-tat of the machine-guns. Then there was
a sudden flare and wisp of smoke. A plane sank, turning and
twisting, to earth.
'Hun!' said Archie, who had his glasses on it.
Almost immediately another followed. This time the pilot recovered
himself, while still a thousand feet from the ground, and
started gliding for the enemy lines. Then he wavered, plunged
sickeningly, and fell headlong into the wood behind La Bruyere.
Farther east, almost over the front trenches, a two-seater Albatross
and a British pilot were having a desperate tussle. The bombardment
had stopped, and from where we stood every movement
could be followed. First one, then another, climbed uppermost and
dived back, swooped out and wheeled in again, so that the two
planes seemed to clear each other only by inches. Then it looked as
if they closed and interlocked. I expected to see both go crashing,
when suddenly the wings of one seemed to shrivel up, and the
machine dropped like a stone.
'Hun,' said Archie. 'That makes three. Oh, good lads! Good lads!'
Then I saw something which took away my breath. Sloping
down in wide circles came a German machine, and, following, a
little behind and a little above, a British. It was the first surrender in
mid-air I had seen. In my amazement I watched the couple right
down to the ground, till the enemy landed in a big meadow across
the high-road and our own man in a field nearer the river.
When I looked back into the sky, it was bare. North, south, east,
and west, there was not a sign of aircraft, British or German.
A violent trembling took me. Archie was sweeping the heavens
with his glasses and muttering to himself. Where was the fifth man?
He must have fought his way through, and it was too late.
But was it? From the toe of a great rolling cloud-bank a flame
shot earthwards, followed by a V-shaped trail of smoke. British or
Boche? British or Boche? I didn't wait long for an answer. For,
riding over the far end of the cloud, came two of our fighting scouts.
I tried to be cool, and snapped my glasses into their case, though
the reaction made me want to shout. Archie turned to me with a
nervous smile and a quivering mouth. 'I think we have won on the
post,' he said.
He reached out a hand for mine, his eyes still on the sky, and I
was grasping it when it was torn away. He was staring upwards
with a white face.
We were looking at the sixth enemy plane.
It had been behind the others and much lower, and was making
straight at a great speed for the east. The glasses showed me a
different type of machine - a big machine with short wings, which
looked menacing as a hawk in a covey of grouse. It was under the
cloud-bank, and above, satisfied, easing down after their fight, and
unwitting of this enemy, rode the two British craft.
A neighbouring anti-aircraft gun broke out into a sudden burst,
and I thanked Heaven for its inspiration. Curious as to this new
development, the two British turned, caught sight of the Boche,
and dived for him.
What happened in the next minutes I cannot tell. The three
seemed to be mixed up in a dog fight, so that I could not distinguish
friend from foe. My hands no longer trembled; I was too desperate.
The patter of machine-guns came down to us, and then one of the
three broke clear and began to climb. The others strained to follow,
but in a second he had risen beyond their fire, for he had easily the
pace of them. Was it the Hun?
Archie's dry lips were talking.
'It's Lensch,' he said.
'How d'you know?' I gasped angrily.
'Can't mistake him. Look at the way he slipped out as he banked.
That's his patent trick.'
In that agonizing moment hope died in me. I was perfectly calm
now, for the time for anxiety had gone. Farther and farther drifted
the British pilots behind, while Lensch in the completeness of his
triumph looped more than once as if to cry an insulting farewell. In
less than three minutes he would be safe inside his own lines, and
he carried the knowledge which for us was death.
Someone was bawling in my ear, and pointing upward. It was
Archie and his face was wild. I looked and gasped - seized my
glasses and looked again.
A second before Lensch had been alone; now there were two machines.
I heard Archie's voice. 'My God, it's the Gladas - the little
Gladas.' His fingers were digging into my arm and his face was
against my shoulder. And then his excitement sobered into an awe
which choked his speech, as he stammered -'It's old -'
But I did not need him to tell me the name, for I had divined it
when I first saw the new plane drop from the clouds. I had that
queer sense that comes sometimes to a man that a friend is present
when he cannot see him. Somewhere up in the void two heroes
were fighting their last battle - and one of them had a crippled leg.
I had never any doubt about the result, though Archie told me
later that he went crazy with suspense. Lensch was not aware of his
opponent till he was almost upon him, and I wonder if by any freak
of instinct he recognized his greatest antagonist. He never fired a
shot, nor did Peter ... I saw the German twist and side-slip as if to
baffle the fate descending upon him. I saw Peter veer over vertically
and I knew that the end had come. He was there to make certain of
victory and he took the only way. The machines closed, there
was a crash which I felt though I could not hear it, and next second
both were hurtling down, over and over, to the earth.
They fell in the river just short of the enemy lines, but I did not
see them, for my eyes were blinded and I was on my knees.
After that it was all a dream. I found myself being embraced by a
French General of Division, and saw the first companies of the
cheerful bluecoats whom I had longed for. With them came the
rain , and it was under a weeping April sky that early in the night I
marched what was left of my division away from the battle-field.
The enemy guns were starting to speak behind us, but I did not
heed them. I knew that now there were warders at the gate, and I
believed that by the grace of God that gate was barred for ever.
They took Peter from the wreckage with scarcely a scar except his
twisted leg. Death had smoothed out some of the age in him, and
left his face much as I remembered it long ago in the Mashonaland
hills. In his pocket was his old battered Pilgrim's Progress. It lies
before me as I write, and beside it - for I was his only legatee - the
little case which came to him weeks later, containing the highest
honour that can be bestowed upon a soldier of Britain.
It was from the Pilgrim's Progress that I read next morning, when
in the lee of an apple-orchard Mary and Blenkiron and I stood in
the soft spring rain beside his grave. And what I read was the tale
in the end not of Mr Standfast, whom he had singled out for his
counterpart, but of Mr Valiant-for-Truth whom he had not hoped
to emulate. I set down the words as a salute and a farewell:
Then said he, 'I am going to my Father's; and though with great
difficulty I am got hither, yet now I do not repent me of all the
trouble I have been at to arrive where I am. My sword I give to
him that shall succeed me in my pilgrimage, and my courage and
skill to him that can get it. My marks and scars I carry with me,
to be a witness for me that I have fought His battles who now will
be my rewarder.'
So he passed over, and all the trumpets sounded for him on
the other side.