"And so all your privations and hardships went for nothing," said Mildred
Wayland, when Boyd had recounted the history of his pilgrimage into the
North.
"Yes," he replied; "as a miner, I am a very wretched failure."
She shrugged her shoulders in disapproval.
"Don't use that term!" she cried. "There is no word so hateful to me as
'failure'--I suppose, because father has never failed in anything. Let us
say that your success has been delayed."
"Very well. That suits me better, also, but you see I've forgotten how to
choose nice words."
They were seated in the library, where for two hours they had remained
undisturbed, Emerson talking rapidly, almost incoherently, as if this were
a sort of confessional, the girl hanging eagerly upon his every word,
following his narrative with breathless interest. The story had been
substantially the same as that which, once before, he had related to
Cherry Malotte; but now the facts were deeply, intimately colored with all
the young man's natural enthusiasm and inmost personal feeling. To his
listener it was like some wonderful, far-off romance, having to do with
strange people whose motives she could scarcely grasp and pitched amid
wild scenes that she could not fully picture.
"And you did all that for me," she mused, after a time.
"It was the only way."
"I wonder if any other man I know would take those risks just for--me."
"Of course. Why, the risk, I mean the physical peril and hardship and
discomfort, don't amount to--that." He snapped his fingers. "It was only
the unending desolation that hurt; it was the separation from you that
punished me--the thought that some luckier fellow might--"
"Nonsense!" Mildred was really indignant. "I told you to fix your own time
and I promised to wait. Even if I had not--cared for you, I would have
kept my word. That is a Wayland principle. As it is, it was--comparatively
easy."
"Then you do love me, my Lady?" He leaned eagerly toward her.
"Do you need to ask?" she whispered from the shelter of his arms. "It is
the same old fascination of our girl and boy days. Do you remember how
completely I lost my head about you?" She laughed softly. "I used to think
you wore a football suit better than anybody in the world! Sometimes I
suspect that it is merely that same girlish hero-worship and can't last.
But it has lasted--so far. Three years is a long time for a girl
like me to wait, isn't it?"
"I know! I know!" he returned, jealously. "But I have lived that time with
nothing but a memory, while you have had other things to occupy you. You
are flattered and courted by men, scores of men--"
"Oh!"
"Legions of men! Oh, I know. Haven't I devoured society columns by the
yard? The papers were six months old, to be sure, when I got them, but
every mention of you was like a knife stab to me. Jealousy drove me to
memorize the name of every man with whom you were seen in public, and I
called down all sorts of curses upon their heads. I used to torture my
lonely soul with hideous pictures of you--"
"Hideous pictures of me?" The girl perked her head to one side and glanced
at him bewitchingly, "You're very flattering!"
"Yes, pictures of you with a caravan of suitors at your heels."
"You foolish boy! Suitors don't come in caravans they come in cabs."
"Well, my simile isn't far wrong in other respects," he replied, with a
flash of her spirit. "But anyhow I pictured you surrounded by all the
beautiful things of your life here, forever in the scent of flowers, in
the lights of drawing-rooms, in the soft music of hidden instruments. God!
how I tortured myself! You were never out of mind for an hour. My days
were given to you, and I used to pray that my dreams might hold nothing
but you. You have been my fetish from the first day I met you, and my
worship has grown blinder every hour, Mildred. You were always out of my
reach, but I have kept my eyes raised toward you just the same, and I have
never looked aside, never faltered." He paused to feast his eyes upon her,
and then in a half-whisper finished, "Oh, my Lady, how beautiful you are!"
And indeed she was; for her face, ordinarily so imperious, was now softly
alight; her eyes, which other men found cold, were kindled with a rare
warmth of understanding; her smile was almost wistfully sweet. To her
lover she seemed to bend beneath the burden of her brown hair, yet her
slim figure had the strength and poise which come of fine physical
inheritance and high spirit. Every gesture, every unstudied attitude,
revealed the grace of the well born woman.
It was this "air" of hers, in fact, which had originally attracted him. He
recalled how excited he had been in that far-away time when he had first
learned her identity--for the name of Wayland was spoken soundingly in the
middle West. In the early stages of their acquaintance he had looked upon
her aloofness as an affectation, but a close intimacy had compelled a
recognition of it as something wholly natural; he found her as truly a
patrician as Wayne Wayland, her father, could wish. The old man's domain
was greater than that of many princes, and his power more absolute. His
only daughter he spoiled as thoroughly as he ruled his part of the
financial world, and wilful Mildred, once she had taken an interest in the
young college man so evidently ready to be numbered among her lovers, did
not pause half way, but made her preference patent to all, and opened to
him a realm of dazzling possibilities. He well remembered the perplexities
of those first delirious days when her regard was beginning to make itself
apparent. She was so different, so wonderfully far removed from all he
knew, that he doubted his own senses.
His friends, indeed, lost no opportunity of informing him that he was a
tremendously favored young man, but this phase of the affair had caused
him little thought, simply because the girl herself had come so swiftly to
overshadow, in his regard, every other consideration--even her own wealth
and position. At the same time he could not but be aware that his standing
in his little world was subtly altered as soon as he became known as the
favored suitor of Wayne Wayland's daughter. He began to receive favors
from comparative strangers; unexpected social privileges were granted him;
his way was made easier in a hundred particulars. From every quarter
delicately gratifying distinctions came to him. Without his volition he
found that he had risen to an entirely different position from that which
he had formerly occupied; the mere coupling of his name with Mildred
Wayland's had lifted him into a calcium glare. It affected him not at all,
he only knew that he was truly enslaved to the girl, that he idolized her,
that he regarded her as something priceless, sacred. She, in turn, frankly
capitulated to him, in proud disregard of what her world might say, as
complete in her surrender to this new lover as she had been inaccessible
in her reserve toward all the rest.
And when he had graduated, how proud of her he had been! How little he had
realized the gulf that separated them, and how quick had been his
awakening!
It was Wayne Wayland who had shown him his folly. He had talked to the
young engineer kindly, if firmly, being too shrewd an old diplomat to fan
the flame of a headstrong love with vigorous opposition.
"Mildred is a rich girl," the old financier had told Boyd, "a very rich
girl; one of the richest girls in this part of the world; while you, my
boy--what have you to offer?"
"Nothing! But you were not always what you are now," Emerson had replied.
"Every man has to make a start. When you married, you were as poor as I
am."
"Granted! But I married a poor girl, from my own station in life.
Fortunately she had the latent power to develop with me as I grew; so that
we kept even and I never outdistanced her. But Mildred is spoiled to begin
with. I spoiled her purposely, to prevent just this sort of thing. She is
bred to luxury, her friends are rich, and she doesn't know any other kind
of life. Her tastes and habits and inclinations are extravagant, to put it
plainly--yes, worse than extravagant; they are positively scandalous. She
is about the richest girl in the country, and by virtue of wealth as well
as breeding she is one of the American aristocracy. Oh! people may say
what they please, but we have an aristocracy all the same which is just as
well marked and just as exclusive as if it rested upon birth instead of
bank accounts."
"You wouldn't object to our marriage if I were rich and Mildred were
poor," Emerson had said, rather cynically.
"Perhaps not. A poor girl can marry a rich man and get along all right if
she has brains; but a very rich girl can't marry a very poor man and be
happy unless she is peculiarly constituted. I happen to know that my girl
isn't so constituted. She is utterly impossible as a poor man's wife. She
can't do anything: she can't economize, she can't amuse herself,
she can't be happy without the things she is accustomed to; it is in her
blood and training and disposition. She would try, bless you! she would
try all right--for a while--but I know her better than she knows herself.
You see, I have the advantage of knowing myself and of having known her
mother before her. She is a hothouse flower, and adversity would wither
her. Mind you, I don't say that her husband must be a millionaire, but he
will need a running start on the road to make her happy, and--well, the
fellow who gets my girl will make her happy or I'll make him damned
miserable!" The old fellow had squared his jaws belligerently at this
statement.
"You have nothing against me--personally, I mean?"
"Nothing."
"She loves me."
"She seems to. But both of you are young and may get over it before you
reach the last hurdle."
"Then you forbid it?" Boyd had queried, his own glance challenging that of
her father.
"By no means. I neither forbid nor consent. I merely ask you to stand
still and use your eyes for a little while. You have intelligence. Don't
be hasty. I am going to tell her just what I have told you, and I think
she is sensible enough to realize the truth of my remarks. No! instead of
forbidding you Mildred's society, I am going to give you all you want of
it. I am going to make you free at our house. I am going to see that you
meet her friends and go where she goes. I want you to do the things that
she does and see how she lives. The more you see of us, the better it will
suit me. I have been studying you for some time, Mr. Emerson, and I think
I have read you correctly. After you have spent a few months with us, come
to me again and we will talk it over. I may say yes by that time, or you
may not wish me to. Perhaps Mildred will decide for both of us."
"That is satisfactory to me."
"Very well! We dine at seven to-night; and we shall expect you."
That Mr. Wayland had made no mistake in his judgment, Emerson had soon
been forced to admit; for the more he saw of Mildred's life, the more
plainly he perceived the barriers that lay between them. Those months had
been an education to him. He had become an integral part of Chicago's
richer social world. The younger set had accepted him readily enough on
the score of his natural good parts, while the name of Wayne Wayland had
acted like magic upon the elders. Yet it had been a cruel time of
probation for the young lover, who continually felt the searching eyes of
the old man reading him; and despite the fact that Mildred took no pains
to conceal her preference for him, there had been no lack of other
suitors, all of whom Boyd hated with a perfect hate.
They had never discussed the matter, yet both the lovers had been
conscious that the old man's words were pregnant with truth, and after a
few months, during which Emerson had made little progress in his
profession, Mildred had gone to her father and frankly begged his aid. But
he had remained like adamant.
"I have been pretty lenient so far. He will have to make his own way
without my help. You know he isn't my candidate."
Recognizing the despair which was possessing her lover, and jealous for
her own happiness, Mildred had arranged that both of them, together,
should have a talk with her father. The result had been the same. Mr.
Wayland listened grimly, then said:
"This request for assistance shows that both of you are beginning to
realize the wisdom of my remarks of a year ago."
"I'm not asking aid from you," Emerson had blazed forth. "I can take care
of myself and of Mildred."
"Permit me to show you that you can't. Your life and training have not
fitted you for the position of Mildred's husband. Have you any idea how
many millions she is going to own?"
No, and I don't care to know."
"I don't care to tell you either, but the Wayland fortune will carry such
a tremendous responsibility with it that my successor will have to be a
stronger man than I am to hold it together. I merely gathered it; he must
keep it. You haven't qualified in either respect yet."
Mildred had interrupted petulantly. "Oh, this endless chatter of money! It
is disgusting. I only wish we were poor. Instead of a blessing, our wealth
is an unmitigated curse--a terrible, exhausting burden. I hear of nothing
else from morning till night. It gives us no pleasure, nothing but care
and worry and--wrinkles. I can do without horses and motors and maids, and
all that. I want to live, really to live." She had arisen and gone
over to Boyd, laying her hand upon his shoulder. "I will give it all up.
Let us try to be happy without it."
It had been a tense moment for both men. Their eyes had met defiantly,
but, reading in the father's face the contempt that waited upon an unmanly
decision, Boyd's pride stood up stiffly.
"No," he replied, "I can't let you do that. Not yet, anyhow. Mr. Wayland
is right, in a way. If he had not been so decent I would have married you
anyhow, but I am indebted to him. He has shown me a lot more of your life
than I knew before, and he has made his word good. I am going to ask you
to wait, however; for quite a while, it may be. I am going to take a
gambler's chance."
"What is it?"
"A gold strike has been made in Alaska--"
"Alaska!"
"Yes! The Klondike. You have read of it? I am told that the chances there
are like those in the days of '49, and I am going."
So it was that he had made his choice, fixing his own time for returning,
and so it was that Mildred Wayland had awaited him.
If to-day, after three years of deprivation, she seemed to him more
beautiful than ever--the interval having served merely to enhance her
charm and strengthen the yearning of his heart--she seemed in the same
view still further removed from his sphere. More reserved, more dignified,
in the reserve of developed womanhood, her cession was the more gracious
and wonderful.
His story finished, Boyd went on to tell her vaguely of his future plans,
and at the last he asked her, with something less than an accepted lover's
confidence:
"Will you wait another year?"
She laughed lightly. "You dear boy, I am not up for auction. This is not
the 'third and last call.' I am not sure I could induce anybody to take
me, even if I desired."
"I read the rumor of your engagement in a back number of a San Francisco
paper. Is your retinue as large as ever?"
She smiled indifferently. "It alters with the season, but I believe the
general average is about the same. You know most of them." She mentioned a
number of names, counting them off on her finger-tips. "Then, of course,
there are the old standbys, Mr. Macklin, Tommy Turner, the Lawton boys--"
"And Alton Clyde!"
"To be sure; little Alton, like the brook, runs on forever. He still
worships you, Boyd, by the way."
"And there are others?"
"A few."
"Who?"
"Nobody you know."
"Any one in particular?" Boyd demanded, with a lover's insistence.
Miss Wayland's hesitation was so brief as almost to escape his notice.
"Nobody who counts. Of course, father has his predilections and insists
upon engineering my affairs in the same way he would float a railroad
enterprise, but you can imagine how romantic the result is."
"Who is the favored party?" the young man asked, darkly. But she arose to
push back the heavy draperies and gaze for a moment out into the deepening
twilight. When she answered, it was in a tone of ordinary indifference.
"Really it isn't worth discussing. I shall not marry until I am ready, and
the subject bores me." An instant later she turned to regard him with
direct eyes.
"Do you remember when I offered to give it all up and go with you, Boyd?"
"I have never forgotten for an instant,"
"You refused to allow it."
"Certainly! I had seen too much of your life, and my pride figured a bit,
also."
"Do you still feel the same way?" Her eyes searched his face rather
anxiously.
"I do! It is even more impossible now than then. I am utterly out of touch
with this environment. My work will take me back where you could not go--
into a land you would dislike, among a people you could not understand.
No; we did quite the sensible thing."
She sighed gratefully and settled upon the window-seat, her back to the
light. "I am glad you feel that way. I--I--think I am growing more
sensible too. I have begun to understand how practical father was, and how
ridiculous I was. Perhaps I am not so impulsive--you see, I am years older
now--perhaps I am more selfish. I don't know which it is and--I can't
express my feelings, but I have had sufficient time since you went away to
think and to look into my own soul. Really I have become quite
introspective. Of course, my feeling for you is just the same as it was,
dear, but I--I can't--" She waved a graceful hand to indicate her
surroundings. "Well, this is my world, and I am a part of it. You
understand, don't you? The thought of giving it up makes me really afraid.
I don't like rough things." She shook herself and gave voice to a
delicious, bubbling little laugh. "I am frightfully spoiled." Emerson drew
her to him tenderly.
"My darling, I understand perfectly, and I love you too well to take you
away from it all; but you will wait for me, won't you?"
"Of course," she replied, quickly. "As long as you wish."
"But I am going to have you!" he cried, insistently. "You are going to be
my wife," He repeated the words softly, reverently: "My wife."
She gazed up at him with a puzzled little frown. "What bothers me is that
you understand me and my life so well, while I scarcely understand you or
yours at all. That seems to tell me that I am unsuited to you in some way.
Why, when you told me that story of your hardships and all that, I
listened as if it were a play or a book, but really it didn't mean
anything to me or stir me as it should. I can't understand my own failure
to understand. That awful country, those barbarous people, the suffering,
the cold, the snow, the angry sea; I don't grasp what they mean. I was
never cold, or hungry, or exhausted. I--well, it is fascinating to hear
about, because you went through it, but why you did it, how you
felt"--she made a gesture as if at a loss for words. "Do you see
what I am trying to convey?"
"Perfectly," he answered, releasing her with a little unadmitted sense of
disappointment at his heart. "I suppose it is only natural."
"I do hope you succeed this time," she continued. "I am growing deadly
tired of things. Not tired of waiting for you, but I am getting to be old;
I am, indeed. Why, at times I actually have an inclination to do fancy-
work--the unfailing symptom. Do you realize that I am twenty-five years
old!"
"Age of decrepitude! And more glorious than any woman in the world!" he
cried.
There was a click outside the library door, and the room, which unnoticed
by them had become nearly dark, was suddenly flooded with light. The
portieres parted, and Wayne Wayland stood in the opening.
"Ah, here you are, my boy! Hawkins told me you had returned."
He advanced to shake the young man's hand, his demeanor gracious and
hearty. "Welcome home. You have been having quite a vacation, haven't you?
Let's see, it's two years, isn't it?"
"Three years!" Emerson replied.
"Impossible! Dear, dear, how time flies when one is busy."
"Boyd has been telling me of his adventures," said Mildred. "He is going
to dine with us."
"Indeed." Mr. Wayland displayed no great degree of enthusiasm. "And have
you returned, like Pizarro, laden with all the gold of the Incas? Or did
Pizarro return? It seems to me that he settled somewhere on the Coast."
The old man laughed at his own conceit.
"I judge Pizarro was a better miner than I," Boyd smiled. "There were
plenty of Esquimau princes whom I might have held for ransom, but if I had
done so, all the rest of the tribe would have come to board with them."
"Have you come home to stay?"
"No, sir; I shall return in a few weeks."
Mr. Wayland's cordiality seemed to increase in some subtle manner.
"Well, I am sorry you didn't make a fortune, my boy. But, rich or poor,
your friends are delighted to see you, and we shall certainly keep you for
dinner. I am interested in that Northwestern country myself, and I want to
ask some questions about it."