Macdonald Dubh's farm lay about three miles north and west from the
manse, and the house stood far back from the cross-road in a small
clearing encircled by thick bush. It was a hard farm to clear, the
timber was heavy, the land lay low, and Macdonald Dubh did not make
as much progress as his neighbors in his conflict with the forest.
Not but that he was a hard worker and a good man with the ax, but
somehow he did not succeed as a farmer. It may have been that his
heart was more in the forest than in the farm. He was a famous
hunter, and in the deer season was never to be found at home, but
was ever ranging the woods with his rifle and his great deerhound,
Bugle.
He made money at the shanties, but money would not stick to his
fingers, and by the time the summer was over most of his money
would be gone, with the government mortgage on his farm still
unlifted. His habits of life wrought a kind of wildness in him
which set him apart from the thrifty, steady-going people among
whom he lived. True, the shanty-men were his stanch friends and
admirers, but then the shanty-men, though well-doing, could hardly
be called steady, except the boss of the Macdonald gang, Macdonald
Bhain, who was a regular attendant and stanch supporter of the
church, and indeed had been spoken of for an elder. But from the
church Macdonald Dubh held aloof. He belonged distinctly to the
"careless," though he could not be called irreligious. He had all
the reverence for "the Word of God, and the Sabbath day, and the
church" that characterized his people. All these held a high place
in his esteem; and though he would not presume to "take the books,"
not being a member of the church, yet on the Sabbath day when he
was at home it was the custom of the household to gather for the
reading of the Word before breakfast. He would never take his
rifle with him through the woods on the Sabbath, and even when
absent from home on a hunting expedition, when the Sabbath day came
round, he religiously kept camp. It is true, he did not often go
to church, and when the minister spoke to him about this, he always
agreed that it was a good thing to go to church. When he had no
better excuse, he would apologize for his absence upon the ground
"that he had not the clothes." The greater part of the trouble was
that he was shy and proud, and felt himself to be different from
the church-going people of the community, and shrank from the
surprised looks of members, and even from the words of approving
welcome that often greeted his presence in church.
It was not according to his desire that Ranald was sent to the
manse. That was the doing of his sister, Kirsty, who for the last
ten years had kept house for him. Not that there was much
housekeeping skill about Kirsty, as indeed any one might see even
without entering Macdonald Dubh's house. Kirsty was big and strong
and willing, but she had not the most elemental ideas of tidiness.
Her red, bushy hair hung in wisps about her face, after the greater
part of it had been gathered into a tight knob at the back of her
head. She was a martyr to the "neuralagy," and suffered from a
perennial cold in the head, which made it necessary for her to wear
a cloud, which was only removed when it could be replaced by her
nightcap. Her face always bore the marks of her labors, and from
it one could gather whether she was among the pots or busy with the
baking. But she was kindhearted, and, up to her light, sought to
fill the place left empty by the death of the wife and mother in
that home, ten years before.
When the minister's wife opened the door, a hot, close, foul smell
rushed forth to meet her. Upon the kitchen stove a large pot of
pig's food was boiling, and the steam and smell from the pot made
the atmosphere of the room overpoweringly fetid. Off the kitchen
or living-room were two small bedrooms, in one of which lay
Macdonald Dubh.
Kirsty met the minister's wife with a warm welcome. She helped her
off with her hood and coat, patting her on the shoulder the while,
and murmuring words of endearment.
"Ah, M'eudail! M'eudail bheg! and did you come through the night
all the way, and it is ashamed that I am to have sent for you, but
he was very bad and I was afraid. Come away! come away! I will
make you a cup of tea." But the minister's wife assured Kirsty
that she was glad to come, and declining the cup of tea, went to
the room where Macdonald Dubh lay tossing and moaning with the
delirium of fever upon him. It was not long before she knew what
was required.
With hot fomentations she proceeded to allay the pain, and in half
an hour Macdonald Dubh grew quiet. His tossings and mutterings
ceased and he fell into a sleep.
Kirsty stood by admiring.
"Mercy me! Look at that now; and it is yourself that is the great
doctor!"
"Now, Kirsty," said Mrs. Murray, in a very matter-of-fact tone, "we
will just make him a little more comfortable."
"Yes," said Kirsty, not quite sure how the feat was to be achieved.
"A little hot something for his inside will be good, but indeed,
many's the drink I have given him," she suggested.
"What have you been giving him, Kirsty?"
"Senny and dandylion, and a little whisky. They will be telling me
it is ferry good whatever for the stomach and bow'ls."
"I don't think I would give him any more of that; but we will try
and make him feel a little more comfortable."
Mrs. Murray knew she was treading on delicate ground. The Highland
pride is quick to take offense.
"Sick people, you see," she proceeded carefully, "need very
frequent changes--sheets and clothing, you understand."
"Aye," said Kirsty, suspiciously.
"I am sure you have plenty of beautiful sheets, and we will change
these when he wakes from his sleep."
"Indeed, they are very clean, for there is no one but myself has
slept in them since he went away last fall to the shanties."
Mrs. Murray felt the delicacy of the position to be sensibly
increased.
"Indeed, that is right, Kirsty; one can never tell just what sort
of people are traveling about nowadays."
"Indeed, and it's true," said Kirsty, heartily, "but I never let
them in here. I just keep them to the bunk."
"But," pursued Mrs. Murray, returning to the subject in hand, "it
is very important that for sick people the sheets should be
thoroughly aired and warmed. Why, in the hospital in Montreal they
take the very greatest care to air and change the sheets every day.
You see so much poison comes through the pores of the skin."
"Do you hear that now?" said Kirsty, amazed. "Indeed, I would be
often hearing that those French people are just full of poison and
such, and indeed, it is no wonder, for the food they put inside of
them."
"O, no, " said Mrs. Murray, "it is the same with all people, but
especially so with sick people."
Kirsty looked as doubtful as was consistent with her respect for
the minister's wife, and Mrs. Murray went on.
"So you will just get the sheets ready to change, and, Kirsty, a
clean night-shirt."
"Night-shirt! and indeed, he has not such a thing to his name."
Kirsty's tone betrayed her thankfulness that her brother was free
from the effeminacy of a night-shirt; but noting the dismay and
confusion on Mrs. Murray's face, she suggested, hesitatingly, "He
might have one of my own, but I am thinking it will be small for
him across the back."
"I am afraid so, Kirsty," said the minister's wife, struggling hard
with a smile. "We will just use one of his own white shirts." But
this scandalized Kirsty as an unnecessary and wasteful luxury.
"Indeed, there is plenty of them in the chist, but he will be
keeping them for the communion season, and the funerals, and such.
He will not be wearing them in his bed, for no one will be seeing
him there at all."
"But he will feel so much better," said Mrs. Murray, and her smile
was so sweet and winning that Kirsty's opposition collapsed, and
without more words both sheets and shirt were produced.
As Kirsty laid them out she observed with a sigh: "Aye, aye, she
was the clever woman--the wife, I mean. She was good with the
needle, and indeed, at anything she tried to do."
"I did not know her," said Mrs. Murray, softly, "but every one
tells me she was a good housekeeper and a good woman."
"She was that," said Kirsty, emphatically, "and she was the light
of his eyes, and it was a bad day for Hugh when she went away."
"Now, Kirsty," said Mrs. Murray, after a pause, "before we put on
these clean things, we will just give him a sponge bath."
Kirsty gasped.
"Mercy sakes! He will not be needing that in the winter, and he
will be getting a cold from it. In the summer-time he will be
going to the river himself. And how will you be giving him a bath
whatever?"
Mrs. Murray carefully explained the process, again fortifying her
position by referring to the practices of the Montreal hospital,
till, as a result of her persuasions and instructions, in an hour
after Macdonald had awakened from his sleep he was lying in his
Sabbath white shirt and between fresh sheets, and feeling cleaner
and more comfortable than he had for many a day. The fever was
much reduced, and he fell again into a deep sleep.
The two women watched beside him, for neither would leave the other
to watch alone. And Ranald, who could not be persuaded to go up to
his loft, lay on the bunk in the kitchen and dozed. After an hour
had passed, Mrs. Murray inquired as to the nourishment Kirsty had
given her brother.
"Indeed, he will not be taking anything whatever," said Kirsty, in
a vexed tone. "And it is no matter what I will be giving him."
"And what does he like, Kirsty?"
"Indeed, he will be taking anything when he is not seek, and he is
that fond of buckwheat pancakes and pork gravy with maple syrup
over them, but would he look at it! And I made him new porridge
to-night, but he would not touch them."
"Did you try him with gruel, Kirsty?"
"Mercy me, and is it Macdonald Dubh and gruel? He would be
flinging the 'feushionless' stuff out of the window."
"But I am sure it would be good for him if he could be persuaded to
try it. I should like to try him."
"Indeed, and you may try. It will be easy enough, for the porridge
are still in the pot."
Kirsty took the pot from the bench, with the remains of the
porridge that had been made for supper still in it, set it on the
fire, and pouring some water in it, began to stir it vigorously.
It was thick and slimy, and altogether a most repulsive-looking
mixture, and Mrs. Murray no longer wondered at Macdonald Dubh's
distaste for gruel.
"I think I will make some fresh, if you will let me, Kirsty--in the
way I make it for the minister, you know."
Kirsty, by this time, had completely surrendered to Mrs. Murray's
guidance, and producing the oatmeal, allowed her to have her way;
so that when Macdonald awoke he found Mrs. Murray standing beside
him with a bowl of the nicest gruel and a slice of thin dry toast.
He greeted the minister's wife with grave courtesy, drank the
gruel, and then lay down again to sleep.
"Will you look at that now?" said Kirsty, amazed at Macdonald
Dubh's forbearance. "He would not like to be offending you."
Then Mrs. Murray besought Kirsty to go and lie down for an hour,
which Kirsty very unwillingly agreed to do.
It was not long before Macdonald began to toss and mutter in his
sleep, breaking forth now and then into wild cries and curses. He
was fighting once more his great fight in the Glengarry line, and
beating back LeNoir.
"Back, ye devil! Would ye? Take that, then. Come back, Mack!"
Then followed a cry so wild that Ranald awoke and came into the
room.
"Bring in some snow, Ranald," said the minister's wife; "we will
lay some on his head."
She bathed the hot face and hands with ice-cold water, and then
laid a snow compress on the sick man's head, speaking to him in
quiet, gentle tones, till he was soothed again to sleep.
When the gray light of the morning came in through the little
window, Macdonald woke sane and quiet.
"You are better," said Mrs. Murray to him.
"Yes," he said, "I am very well, thank you, except for the pain
here." He pointed to his chest.
"You have been badly hurt, Ranald tells me. How did it happen?"
"Well," said Macdonald, slowly, "it is very hard to say."
"Did the tree fall on you?" asked Mrs. Murray.
Macdonald glanced at her quickly, and then answered: "It is very
dangerous work with the trees. It is wonderful how quick they will
fall."
"Your face and breast seem very badly bruised and cut."
"Aye, yes," said Macdonald. "The breast is bad whatever."
"I think you had better send for Doctor Grant," Mrs. Murray said.
"There may be some internal injury."
"No, no," said Macdonald, decidedly. "I will have no doctor at me,
and I will soon be round again, if the Lord will. When will the
minister be home?"
But Mrs. Murray, ignoring his attempt to escape the subject, went
on: "Yes, but, Mr. Macdonald, I am anxious to have Doctor Grant
see you, and I wish you would send for him to-morrow."
"Ah, well," said Macdonald, not committing himself, "we will be
seeing about that. But the doctor has not been in this house for
many a day." Then, after a pause, he added, in a low voice, "Not
since the day she was taken from me."
"Was she ill long?"
"Indeed, no. It was just one night. There was no doctor, and the
women could not help her, and she was very bad--and when it came it
was a girl--and it was dead--and then the doctor arrived, but he
was too late." Macdonald Dubh finished with a great sigh, and the
minister's wife said gently to him:
"That was a very sad day, and a great loss to you and Ranald."
"Aye, you may say it; she was a bonnie woman whatever, and grand at
the spinning and the butter. And, oich-hone, it was a sad day for
us."
The minister's wife sat silent, knowing that such grief cannot be
comforted, and pitying from her heart the lonely man. After a time
she said gently, "She is better off."
A look of doubt and pain and fear came into Macdonald's eyes.
"She never came forward," he said, hesitatingly. "She was afraid
to come."
"I have heard of her often, Mr. Macdonald, and I have heard that
she was a good and gentle woman."
"Aye, she was that."
"And kind to the sick."
"You may believe it."
"And she loved the house of God."
"Aye, and neither rain nor snow nor mud would be keeping her from
it, but she would be going every Sabbath day, bringing her
stockings with her."
"Her stockings?"
"Aye, to change her feet in the church. What else? Her stockings
would be wet with the snow and water."
Mrs. Murray nodded. "And she loved her Saviour, Mr. Macdonald."
"Indeed, I believe it well, but she was afraid she would not be
having 'the marks.'"
"Never you fear, Mr. Macdonald," said Mrs. Murray. "If she loved
her Saviour she is with him now."
He turned around to her and lifted himself eagerly on his elbow.
"And do you really think that?" he said, in a voice subdued and
anxious.
"Indeed I do," said Mrs. Murray, in a tone of certain conviction.
Macdonald sank back on his pillow, and after a moment's silence,
said, in a voice of pain: "Oh, but it is a peety she did not know!
It is a peety she did not know. For many's the time before--
before--her hour came on her, she would be afraid."
"But she was not afraid at the last, Mr. Macdonald?"
"Indeed, no. I wondered at her. She was like a babe in its
mother's arms. There was a light on her face, and I mind well what
she said." Macdonald paused. There was a stir in the kitchen, and
Mrs. Murray, glancing behind her, saw Ranald standing near the door
intently listening. Then Macdonald went on. "I mind well the
words, as if it was yesterday. 'Hugh, my man,' she said, 'am no
feared' (she was from the Lowlands, but she was a fine woman); 'I
haena the marks, but 'm no feared but He'll ken me. Ye'll tak'
care o' Ranald, for, oh, Hugh! I ha' gi'en him to the Lord. The
Lord help you to mak' a guid man o' him.'" Macdonald's voice
faltered into silence, then, after a few moments, he cried, "And
oh! Mistress Murra', I cannot tell you the often these words do
keep coming to me; and it is myself that has not kept the promise I
made to her, and may the Lord forgive me."
The look of misery in the dark eyes touched Mrs. Murray to the
heart. She laid her hand on Macdonald's arm, but she could not
find words to speak. Suddenly Macdonald recalled himself.
"You will forgive me," he said; "and you will not be telling any
one."
By this time the tears were streaming down her face, and Mrs.
Murray could only say, brokenly, "You know I will not."
"Aye, I do," said Macdonald, with a sigh of content, and he turned
his face away from her to the wall.
"And now you let me read to you," she said, softly, and taking from
her bag the Gaelic Bible, which with much toil she had learned to
read since coming to this Highland congregation, she read to him
from the old Psalm those words, brave, tender, and beautiful, that
have so often comforted the weary and wandering children of men,
"The Lord is my Shepherd," and so on to the end. Then from psalm
to psalm she passed, selecting such parts as suited her purpose,
until Macdonald turned to her again and said, admiringly:
"It is yourself that has the bonnie Gaelic."
"I am afraid," she said, with a smile, "it is not really good, but
it is the best a south country woman can do."
"Indeed, it is very pretty," he said, earnestly.
Then the minister's wife said, timidly, "I cannot pray in the
Gaelic."
"Oh, the English will be very good," said Macdonald, and she knelt
down and in simple words poured out her heart in prayer. Before
she rose from her knees she opened the Gaelic Bible, and turned to
the words of the Lord's Prayer.
"We will say this prayer together," she said, gently.
Macdonald, bowing his head gravely, answered: "It is what she
would often be doing with me."
There was still only one woman to this lonely hearted man, and with
a sudden rush of pity that showed itself in her breaking voice, the
minister's wife began in Gaelic, "Our Father which art in heaven."
Macdonald followed her in a whisper through the petitions until
they came to the words, "And forgive us our debts as we forgive our
debtors," when he paused and would say no more. Mrs. Murray
repeated the words of the petition, but still there was no
response. Then the minister's wife knew that she had her finger
upon a sore spot, and she finished the prayer alone.
For a time she sat silent, unwilling to probe the wound, and yet
too brave to flinch from what she felt to be duty.
"We have much to be forgiven," she said, gently. "More than we can
ever forgive." Still there was silence.
"And the heart that cannot forgive an injury is closed to the
forgiveness of God."
The morning sun was gleaming through the treetops, and Mrs. Murray
was worn with her night's vigil, and anxious to get home. She
rose, and offering Macdonald her hand, smiled down into his face,
and said: "Good by! We must try to forgive."
As he took her hand, Macdonald's dark face began to work, and he
broke forth into a bitter cry.
"He took me unawares! And it was a coward's blow! and I will not
forgive him until I have given him what he deserves, if the Lord
spares me!" And then he poured forth, in hot and bitter words, the
story of the great fight. By the time he had finished his tale
Ranald had come in from the kitchen, and was standing with clenched
fists and face pale with passion at the foot of the bed.
As Mrs. Murray listened to this story her eyes began to burn, and
when it was over, she burst forth: "Oh, it was a cruel and
cowardly and brutal thing for men to do! And did you beat them
off?" she asked.
"Aye, and that we did," burst in Ranald. And in breathless haste
and with flashing eye he told them of Macdonald Bhain's part in the
fight.
"Splendid!" cried the minister's wife, forgetting herself for the
moment.
"But he let him go," said Ranald, sadly. "He would not strike him,
but just let him go."
Then the minister's wife cried again: "Ah, he is a great man, your
uncle! And a great Christian. Greater than I could have been, for
I would have slain him then and there." Her eyes flashed, and the
color flamed in her face as she uttered these words.
"Aye," said Macdonald Dubh, regarding her with deep satisfaction.
His tone and look recalled the minister's wife, and turning to
Ranald, she added, sadly:
"But your uncle was right, Ranald, and we must forgive even as he
did."
"That," cried Ranald, with fierce emphasis, "I will never do, until
once I will be having my hands on his throat."
"Hush, Ranald!" said the minister's wife. "I know it is hard, but
we must forgive. You see we must forgive. And we must ask Him to
help us, who has more to forgive than any other."
But she said no more to Macdonald Dubh on that subject that morning.
The fire of the battle was in her heart, and she felt she could
more easily sympathize with his desire for vengeance than with the
Christian grace of forgiveness. But as they rode home together
through the bush, where death had trailed them so closely the night
before, the sweet sunlight and the crisp, fresh air, and all the
still beauty of the morning, working with the memory of their
saving, rebuked and soothed and comforted her, and when Ranald
turned back from the manse door, she said softly: "Our Father in
heaven was very good to us, Ranald, and we should be like him. He
forgives and loves, and we should, too."
And Ranald, looking into the sweet face, pale with the long night's
trials, but tinged now with the faintest touch of color from the
morning, felt somehow that it might be possible to forgive.
But many days had to come and go, and many waters flow over the
souls of Macdonald Dubh and his son Ranald, before they were able
to say, "Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors."