Gwen was undoubtedly wild and, as The Sky Pilot said, wilful and
wicked. Even Bronco Bill and Hi Kendal would say so, without, of
course, abating one jot of their admiration for her. For fourteen
years she had lived chiefly with wild things. The cattle on the
range, wild as deer, the coyotes, the jack-rabbits and the timber
wolves were her mates and her instructors. From these she learned
her wild ways. The rolling prairie of the Foothill country was
her home. She loved it and all things that moved upon it with
passionate love, the only kind she was capable of. And all summer
long she spent her days riding up and down the range alone, or with
her father, or with Joe, or, best of all, with The Duke, her hero
and her friend. So she grew up strong, wholesome and self-reliant,
fearing nothing alive and as untamed as a yearling range colt.
She was not beautiful. The winds and sun had left her no complexion
to speak of, but the glory of her red hair, gold-red, with purple
sheen, nothing could tarnish. Her eyes, too, deep blue with rims of
gray, that flashed with the glint of steel or shone with melting
light as of the stars, according to her mood--those Irish, warm,
deep eyes of hers were worth a man's looking at.
Of course, all spoiled her. Ponka and her son Joe grovelled in
abjectest adoration, while her father and all who came within touch
of her simply did her will. Even The Duke, who loved her better
than anything else, yielded lazy, admiring homage to his Little
Princess, and certainly, when she stood straight up with her proud
little gold-crowned head thrown back, flashing forth wrath or
issuing imperious commands, she looked a princess, all of her.
It was a great day and a good day for her when she fished The Sky
Pilot out of the Swan and brought him home, and the night of Gwen's
first "prayers," when she heard for the first time the story of the
Man of Nazareth, was the best of all her nights up to that time.
All through the winter, under The Pilot's guidance, she, with her
father, the Old Timer, listening near, went over and over that
story so old now to many, but ever becoming new, till a whole new
world of mysterious Powers and Presences lay open to her imagination
and became the home of great realities. She was rich in imagination
and, when The Pilot read Bunyan's immortal poem, her mother's old
"Pilgrim's Progress," she moved and lived beside the hero of that
tale, backing him up in his fights and consumed with anxiety over
his many impending perils, till she had him safely across the river
and delivered into the charge of the shining ones.
The Pilot himself, too, was a new and wholesome experience. He was
the first thing she had yet encountered that refused submission,
and the first human being that had failed to fall down and worship.
There was something in him that would not always yield, and,
indeed, her pride and her imperious tempers he met with surprise
and sometimes with a pity that verged toward contempt. With this
she was not well pleased and not infrequently she broke forth upon
him. One of these outbursts is stamped upon my mind, not only
because of its unusual violence, but chiefly because of the events
which followed. The original cause of her rage was some trifling
misdeed of the unfortunate Joe; but when I came upon the scene it
was The Pilot who was occupying her attention. The expression of
surprise and pity on his face appeared to stir her up.
"How dare you look at me like that?" she cried.
"How very extraordinary that you can't keep hold of yourself
better!" he answered.
"I can!" she stamped, "and I shall do as I like!"
"It is a great pity," he said, with provoking calm, "and besides,
it is weak and silly." His words were unfortunate.
"Weak!" she gasped, when her breath came back to her. "Weak!"
"Yes," he said, "very weak and childish."
Then she could have cheerfully put him to a slow and cruel death.
When she had recovered a little she cried vehemently:
"I'm not weak! I'm strong! I'm stronger than you are! I'm strong
as--as--a man!"
I do not suppose she meant the insinuation; at any rate The Pilot
ignored it and went on.
"You're not strong enough to keep your temper down." And then, as
she had no reply ready, he went on, "And really, Gwen, it is not
right. You must not go on in this way."
Again his words were unfortunate.
"Must not!" she cried, adding an inch to her height. "Who says
so?"
"God!" was the simple, short answer.
She was greatly taken back, and gave a quick glance over her
shoulder as if to see Him, who would dare to say must not to her;
but, recovering, she answered sullenly:
"I don't care!"
"Don't care for God?" The Pilot's voice was quiet and solemn, but
something in his manner angered her, and she blazed forth again.
"I don't care for anyone, and I shall do as I like."
The Pilot looked at her sadly for a moment, and then said slowly:
"Some day, Gwen, you will not be able to do as you like."
I remember well the settled defiance in her tone and manner as she
took a step nearer him and answered in a voice trembling with
passion:
"Listen! I have always done as I like, and I shall do as I like
till I die!" And she rushed forth from the house and down toward
the canyon, her refuge from all disturbing things, and chiefly from
herself.
I could not shake off the impression her words made upon me.
"Pretty direct, that," I said to The Pilot, as we rode away. "The
declaration may be philosophically correct, but it rings uncommonly
like a challenge to the Almighty. Throws down the gauntlet, so to
speak."
But The Pilot only said, "Don't! How can you?"
Within a week her challenge was accepted, and how fiercely and how
gallantly did she struggle to make it good!
It was The Duke that brought me the news, and as he told me the
story his gay, careless self-command for once was gone. For in the
gloom of the canyon where he overtook me I could see his face
gleaming out ghastly white, and even his iron nerve could not keep
the tremor from his voice.
"I've just sent up the doctor," was his answer to my greeting. "I
looked for you last night, couldn't find you, and so rode off to
the Fort."
"What's up?" I said, with fear in my heart, for no light thing
moved The Duke.
"Haven't you heard? It's Gwen," he said, and the next minute or
two he gave to Jingo, who was indulging in a series of unexpected
plunges. When Jingo was brought down, The Duke was master of
himself and told his tale with careful self-control.
Gwen, on her father's buckskin bronco, had gone with The Duke to
the big plain above the cut-bank where Joe was herding the cattle.
The day was hot and a storm was in the air. They found Joe riding
up and down, singing to keep the cattle quiet, but having a hard
time to hold the bunch from breaking. While The Duke was riding
around the far side of the bunch, a cry from Gwen arrested his
attention. Joe was in trouble. His horse, a half-broken cayuse,
had stumbled into a badger-hole and had bolted, leaving Joe to the
mercy of the cattle. At once they began to sniff suspiciously at
this phenomenon, a man on foot, and to follow cautiously on his
track. Joe kept his head and walked slowly out, till all at once a
young cow began to bawl and to paw the ground. In another minute
one, and then another of the cattle began to toss their heads and
bunch and bellow till the whole herd of two hundred were after Joe.
Then Joe lost his head and ran. Immediately the whole herd broke
into a thundering gallop with heads and tails aloft and horns
rattling like the loading of a regiment of rifles.
"Two more minutes," said The Duke, "would have done for Joe, for I
could never have reached him; but, in spite of my most frantic
warnings and signalings, right into the face of that mad,
bellowing, thundering mass of steers rode that little girl. Nerve!
I have some myself, but I couldn't have done it. She swung her
horse round Joe and sailed out with him, with the herd bellowing at
the tail of her bronco. I've seen some cavalry things in my day,
but for sheer cool bravery nothing touches that."
"How did it end? Did they run them down?" I asked, with terror at
such a result.
"No, they crowded her toward the cut-bank, and she was edging them
off and was almost past, when they came to a place where the bank
bit in, and her iron-mouthed brute wouldn't swerve, but went
pounding on, broke through, plunged; she couldn't spring free
because of Joe, and pitched headlong over the bank, while the
cattle went thundering past. I flung myself off Jingo and slid
down somehow into the sand, thirty feet below. Here was Joe safe
enough, but the bronco lay with a broken leg, and half under him
was Gwen. She hardly knew she was hurt, but waved her hand to me
and cried out, 'Wasn't that a race? I couldn't swing this hard-
headed brute. Get me out.' But even as she spoke the light faded
from her eyes, she stretched out her hands to me, saying faintly,
'Oh, Duke,' and lay back white and still. We put a bullet into the
buckskin's head, and carried her home in our jackets, and there she
lies without a sound from her poor, white lips."
The Duke was badly cut up. I had never seen him show any sign of
grief before, but as he finished the story he stood ghastly and
shaking. He read my surprise in my face and said:
"Look here, old chap, don't think me quite a fool. You can't know
what that little girl has done for me these years. Her trust in
me--it is extraordinary how utterly she trusts me--somehow held me
up to my best and back from perdition. It is the one bright spot
in my life in this blessed country. Everyone else thinks me a
pleasant or unpleasant kind of fiend."
I protested rather faintly.
"Oh, don't worry your conscience," he answered, with a slight
return of his old smile, "a fuller knowledge would only justify the
opinion." Then, after a pause, he added: "But if Gwen goes, I must
pull out, I could not stand it."
As we rode up, the doctor came out.
"Well, what do you think?" asked The Duke.
"Can't say yet," replied the old doctor, gruff with long army
practice, "bad enough. Good night."
But The Duke's hand fell upon his shoulder with a grip that must
have got to the bone, and in a husky voice he asked:
"Will she live?"
The doctor squirmed, but could not shake off that crushing grip.
"Here, you young tiger, let go! What do you think I am made of?"
he cried, angrily. "I didn't suppose I was coming to a bear's den,
or I should have brought a gun."
It was only by the most complete apology that The Duke could
mollify the old doctor sufficiently to get his opinion.
"No, she will not die! Great bit of stuff! Better she should die,
perhaps! But can't say yet for two weeks. Now remember," he added
sharply, looking into The Duke's woe-stricken face, "her spirits
must be kept up. I have lied most fully and cheerfully to them
inside; you must do the same," and the doctor strode away, calling
out:
"Joe! Here, Joe! Where is he gone? Joe, I say! Extraordinary
selection Providence makes at times; we could have spared that lazy
half-breed with pleasure! Joe! Oh, here you are! Where in
thunder--" But here the doctor stopped abruptly. The agony in the
dark face before him was too much even for the bluff doctor.
Straight and stiff Joe stood by the horse's head till the doctor
had mounted, then with a great effort he said:
"Little miss, she go dead?"
"Dead!" called out the doctor, glancing at the open window. "Why,
bless your old copper carcass, no! Gwen will show you yet how to
rope a steer."
Joe took a step nearer, and lowering his tone said:
"You speak me true? Me man, Me no papoose." The piercing black
eyes searched the doctor's face. The doctor hesitated a moment,
and then, with an air of great candor, said cheerily:
"That's all right, Joe. Miss Gwen will cut circles round your old
cayuse yet. But remember," and the doctor was very impressive,
"you must make her laugh every day."
Joe folded his arms across his breast and stood like a statue till
the doctor rode away; then turning to us he grunted out:
"Him good man, eh?"
"Good man," answered The Duke, adding, "but remember, Joe, what he
told you to do. Must make her laugh every day."
Poor Joe! Humor was not his forte, and his attempt in this
direction in the weeks that followed would have been humorous were
they not so pathetic. How I did my part I cannot tell. Those
weeks are to me now like the memory of an ugly nightmare. The
ghostly old man moving out and in of his little daughter's room
in useless, dumb agony; Ponka's woe-stricken Indian face; Joe's
extraordinary and unusual but loyal attempts at fun-making
grotesquely sad, and The Duke's unvarying and invincible
cheeriness; these furnish light and shade for the picture my
memory brings me of Gwen in those days.
For the first two weeks she was simply heroic. She bore her pain
without a groan, submitted to the imprisonment which was harder
than pain with angelic patience. Joe, The Duke and I carried out
our instructions with careful exactness to the letter. She never
doubted, and we never let her doubt but that in a few weeks she
would be on the pinto's back again and after the cattle. She made
us pass our word for this till it seemed as if she must have read
the falsehoods on our brows.
"To lie cheerfully with her eyes upon one's face calls for more
than I possess," said The Duke one day. "The doctor should supply
us tonics. It is an arduous task."
And she believed us absolutely, and made plans for the fall "round-
up," and for hunts and rides till one's heart grew sick. As to the
ethical problem involved, I decline to express an opinion, but we
had no need to wait for our punishment. Her trust in us, her eager
and confident expectation of the return of her happy, free, outdoor
life; these brought to us, who knew how vain they were, their own
adequate punishment for every false assurance we gave. And how
bright and brave she was those first days! How resolute to get
back to the world of air and light outside!
But she had need of all her brightness and courage and resolution
before she was done with her long fight.