Hughie rose late next morning, and the hurry and rush of getting
off to school in time left him no opportunity to get rid of the
little packages in his pocket, that seemed to burn and sting him
through his clothes. He determined to keep them safe in his pocket
all day and put them back in the drawer at night. His mother's
face, white with her long watching, and sad and anxious in spite of
its brave smile, filled him with such an agony of remorse that,
hurrying through his breakfast, he snatched a farewell kiss, and
then tore away down the lane lest he should be forced to confess
all his terrible secret.
The first person who met him in the school-yard was Foxy.
"Have you got that?" was his salutation.
A sudden fury possessed Hughie.
"Yes, you red-headed, sneaking fox," he answered, "and I hope it
will bring you the curse of luck, anyway."
Foxy hurried him cautiously behind the school, with difficulty
concealing his delight while Hughie unrolled his little bundles and
counted out the quarters and dimes and half dimes into his hand.
"There's a dollar, and there's a quarter, and--and--there's
another," he added, desperately, "and God may kill me on the spot
if I give you any more!"
"All right, Hughie," said Foxy, soothingly, putting the money into
his pocket. "You needn't be so mad about it. You bought the
pistol and the rest right enough, didn't you?"
"I know I did, but--but you made me, you big, sneaking thief--and
then you--" Hughie's voice broke in his rage. His face was pale,
and his black eyes were glittering with fierce fury, and in his
heart he was conscious of a wild longing to fall upon Foxy and tear
him to pieces. And Foxy, big and tall as he was, glanced at
Hughie's face, and saying not a word, turned and fled to the front
of the school where the other boys were.
Hughie followed slowly, his heart still swelling with furious rage,
and full of an eager desire to be at Foxy's smiling, fat face.
At the school door stood Miss Morrison, the teacher, smiling down
upon Foxy, who was looking up at her with an expression of such
sweet innocence that Hughie groaned out between his clenched teeth,
"Oh, you red-headed devil, you! Some day I'll make you smile out
of the other side of your big, fat mouth."
'Who are you swearing at?" It was Fusie.
"Oh, Fusie," cried Hughie, "let's get Davie and get into the woods.
I'm not going in to-day. I hate the beastly place, and the whole
gang of them."
Fusie, the little, harum-scarum French waif was ready for anything
in the way of adventure. To him anything was better than the even
monotony of the school routine. True, it might mean a whipping
both from the teacher and from Mrs. McLeod; but as to the teacher's
whipping, Fusie was prepared to stand that for a free day in the
woods, and as to the other, Fusie declared that Mrs. McLeod's
whipping "wouldn't hurt a skeeter."
To Davie Scotch, however, playing truant was a serious matter. He
had been reared in an atmosphere of reverence for established law
and order, but when Hughie gave command, to Davie there seemed
nothing for it but to obey.
The three boys watched till the school was called, and then
crawling along on their stomachs behind the heavy cedar-log fence,
they slipped into the balsam thicket at the edge of the woods and
were safe. Here they flung down their schoolbags, and lying prone
upon the fragrant bed of pine-needles strewn thickly upon the moss,
they peered out through the balsam boughs at the house of their
bondage with an exultant sense of freedom and a feeling of pity, if
not of contempt, for the unhappy and spiritless creatures who were
content to be penned inside any house on such a day as this, and
with such a world outside.
For some minutes they rolled about upon the soft moss and balsam-
needles and the brown leaves of last year, till their hearts were
running over with a deep and satisfying delight. It is hard to
resist the ministry of the woods. The sympathetic silence of the
trees, the aromatic airs that breathe through the shady spaces, the
soft mingling of broken lights--these all combine to lay upon the
spirit a soothing balm, and bring to the heart peace. And Hughie,
sensitive at every pore to that soothing ministry, before long
forgot for a time even Foxy, with his fat, white face and smiling
mouth, and lying on the broad of his back, and looking up at the
far-away blue sky through the interlacing branches and leaves, he
began to feel again that it was good to be alive, and that with all
his misery there were compensations.
But any lengthened period of peaceful calm is not for boys of the
age and spirit of Hughie and his companions.
"What are you going to do?" asked Fusie, the man of adventure.
"Do nothing," said Hughie from his supine position. "This is good
enough for me."
"Not me," said Fusie, starting to climb a tall, lithe birch, while
Hughie lazily watched him. Soon Fusie was at the top of the birch,
which began to sway dangerously.
"Try to fly into that balsam," cried Hughie.
"No, sir!"
"Yes, go on."
"Can't do it."
"Oh, pshaw! you can."
"No, nor you either. That's a mighty big jump."
"Come on down, then, and let me try," said Hughie, in scorn. His
laziness was gone in the presence of a possible achievement.
In a few minutes he had taken Fusie's place a the top of the
swaying birch. It did not look so easy from the top of the birch
as from the ground to swing into the balsam-tree. However, he
could not go back now.
"Dinna try it, Hughie!" cried Davie to him. "Ye'll no mak it, and
ye'll come an awfu' cropper, as sure as deith." But Hughie,
swaying gently back and forth, was measuring the distance of his
drop. It was not a feat so very difficult, but it called for good
judgment and steady nerve. A moment too soon or a moment too late
in letting go, would mean a nasty fall of twenty feet or more upon
the solid ground, and one never knew just how one would light.
"I wudna dae it, Hughie," urged Davie, anxiously.
But Hughie, swaying high in the birch, heeded not the warning, and
suddenly swinging out from the slender trunk and holding by his
hands, he described a parabola, and releasing the birch dropped on
to the balsam top. But balsam-trees are of uncertain fiber, and
not to be relied upon, and this particular balsam, breaking off
short in Hughie's hands, allowed him to go crashing through the
branches to the earth.
"Man! man!" cried Davie Scotch, bending over Hughie as he lay white
and still upon the ground. "Are ye deid? Maircy me! he's deid,"
sobbed Davie, wringing his hands. "Fusie, Fusie, ye gowk! where
are ye gone?"
In a moment or two Fusie reappeared through the branches with a
capful of water, and dashed it into Hughie's face, with the result
that the lad opened his eyes, and after a gasp or two, sat up and
looked about him.
"Och, laddie, laddie, are ye no deid?" said Davie Scotch.
"What's the matter with you, Scottie?" asked Hughie, with a
bewildered look about him. "And who's been throwing water all over
me?" he added, wrathfully, as full consciousness returned.
"Man! I'm glad to see ye mad. Gang on wi' ye," shouted Davie,
joyously. "Ye were deid the noo. Ay, clean deid. Was he no,
Fusie?" Fusie nodded.
"I guess not," said Hughie. "It was that rotten balsam top,"
looking vengefully at the broken tree.
"Lie doon, man," said Davie, still anxiously hovering about him.
"Dinna rise yet awhile."
"Oh, pshaw!" said Hughie, and he struggled to his feet; "I'm all
right." But as he spoke he sank down upon the moss, saying, "I
feel kind of queer, though."
"Lie still, then, will ye," said Davie, angrily. "Ye're fair
obstinate."
"Get me some water, Fusie," said Hughie, rather weakly.
"Run, Fusie, ye gomeril, ye!"
In a minute Fusie was back with a capful of water.
"That's better. I'm all right now," said Hughie, sitting up.
"Hear him!" said Davie. "Lie ye doon there, or I'll gie ye a crack
that'll mak ye glad tae keep still."
For half an hour the boys lay on the moss discussing the accident
fully in all its varying aspects and possibilities, till the sound
of wheels came up the road.
"Who's that, Fusie?" asked Hughie, lazily.
"Dunno me," said Fusie, peering through the trees.
"Do you, Scotty?"
"No, not I."
Hughie crawled over to the edge of the brush.
"Why, you idiots! it's Thomas Finch. Thomas!" he called, but
Thomas drove straight on. In a moment Hughie sprang up, forgetting
all about his weakness, and ran out to the roadside.
"Hello, Thomas!" he cried, waving his hand. Thomas saw him,
stopped, and looked at him, doubtfully. He, with all the Section,
knew how the school was going, and he easily guessed what took
Hughie there.
"I'm not going to school to-day," said Hughie, answering Thomas's
look.
Thomas nodded, and sat silent, waiting. He was not a man to waste
his words.
"I hate the whole thing!" exclaimed Hughie.
"Foxy, eh?" said Thomas, to whom on other occasions Hughie had
confided his grievances, and especially those he suffered at the
hands of Foxy.
"Yes, Foxy," cried Hughie, in a sudden rage. "He's a fat-faced
sneak! And the teacher just makes me sick!"
Thomas still waited.
"She just smiles and smiles at him, and he smiles at her. Ugh! I
can't stand him."
"Not much harm in smiling," said Thomas, solemnly.
"Oh, Thomas, I hate the school. I'm not going to go any more."
Thomas looked gravely down upon Hughie's passionate face for a few
moments, and then said, "You will do what your mother wants you, I
guess."
Hughie said nothing in reply, while Thomas sat pondering.
Finally he said, with a sudden inspiration, "Hughie, come along
with me, and help me with the potatoes."
"They won't let me," grumbled Hughie. "At least father won't. I
don't like to ask mother."
Thomas's eyes opened in surprise. This was a new thing in Hughie.
"I'll ask your mother," he said, at length. "Get in with me here."
Still Hughie hesitated. To get away from school was joy enough, to
go with Thomas to the potato planting was more than could be hoped
for. But still he stood making pictures in the dust with his bare
toes.
"There's Fusie," he said, "and Davie Scotch."
"Well," said Thomas, catching sight of those worthies through the
trees, "let them come, too."
Fusie was promptly willing, but Davie was doubtful. He certainly
would not go to the manse, where he might meet the minister, and
meeting the minister's wife under the present circumstances was a
little worse.
"Well, you can wait at the gate with Fusie," suggested Hughie, and
so the matter was settled.
Fortunately for Hughie, his father was not at home. But not
Thomas's earnest entreaties nor Hughie's eager pleading would have
availed with the mother, for attendance at school was a sacred duty
in her eyes, had it not been that her boy's face, paler than usual,
and with the dawning of a new defiance in it, startled her, and
confirmed in her the fear that all was not well with him.
"Well, Thomas, he may go with you to the Cameron's for the
potatoes, but as to going with you to the planting, that is another
thing. Your mother is not fit to be troubled with another boy, and
especially a boy like Hughie. And how is she to-day, Thomas?"
continued Mrs. Murray, as Thomas stood in dull silence before her.
"She's better," said Thomas, answering more quickly than usual, and
with a certain eagerness in his voice. "She's a great deal better,
and Hughie will do her no harm, but good."
Mrs. Murray looked at Thomas as he spoke, wondering at the change
in his voice and manner. The heavy, stolid face had changed since
she had last seen it. It was finer, keener, than before. The
eyes, so often dull, were lighted up with a new, strange fire.
"She's much better," said Thomas again, as if insisting against
Mrs. Murray's unbelief.
"I am glad to hear it, Thomas," she said, gently. "She will soon
be quite well again, I hope, for she has had a long, long time of
suffering."
"Yes, a long, long time," replied Thomas. His face was pale, and
in his eyes was a look of pain, almost of fear.
"And you will come to see her soon?" he added. There was almost a
piteous entreaty in his tone.
"Yes, Thomas, surely next week. And meantime, I shall let Hughie
go with you."
A look of such utter devotion poured itself into Thomas's eyes that
Mrs. Murray was greatly moved, and putting her hand on his
shoulder, she said, gently, "'He will give His angels charge.'
Don't be afraid, Thomas."
"Afraid!" said Thomas, with a kind of gasp, his face going white.
"Afraid! No. Why?" But Mrs. Murray turned from him to hide the
tears that she could not keep out of her eyes, for she knew what
was before Thomas and them all.
Meantime Hughie was busy putting into his little carpet-bag what he
considered the necessary equipment for his visit.
"You must wear your shoes, Hughie."
"Oh, mother, shoes are such an awful bother planting potatoes.
They get full of ground and everything."
"Well, put them in your bag, at any rate, and your stockings, too.
You may need them."
By degrees Hughie's very moderate necessities were satisfied, and
with a hurried farewell to his mother he went off with Thomas. At
the gate they picked up Fusie and Davie Scotch, and went off to the
Cameron's for the seed potatoes, Hughie's heart lighter than it had
been for many a day. And all through the afternoon, and as he
drove home with Thomas on the loaded bags, his heart kept singing
back to the birds in the trees overhead.
It was late in the afternoon when they drove into the yard, for the
roads were still bad in the swamp, where the corduroy had been
broken up by the spring floods.
Thomas hurried through unhitching, and without waiting to unharness
he stood the horses in their stalls, saying, "We may need them this
afternoon again," and took Hughie off to the house straight-way.
The usual beautiful order pervaded the house and its surroundings.
The back yard, through which the boys came from the barn, was free
of litter; the chips were raked into neat little piles close to the
wood-pile, for summer use. On a bench beside the "stoop" door was
a row of milk-pans, lapping each other like scales on a fish,
glittering in the sun. The large summer kitchen, with its spotless
floor and white-washed walls, stood with both its doors open to the
sweet air that came in from the fields above, and was as pleasant a
room to look in upon as one could desire. On the sill of the open
window stood a sweet-scented geranium and a tall fuschia with white
and crimson blossoms hanging in clusters. Bunches of wild flowers
stood on the table, on the dresser, and up beside the clock, and
the whole room breathed of sweet scents of fields and flowers, and
"the name of the chamber was peace."
Beside the open window sat the little mother in an arm-chair, the
embodiment of all the peaceful beauty and sweet fragrance of the
room.
"Well, mother," said Thomas, crossing the floor to her and laying
his hand upon her shoulder, "have I been long away? I have brought
Hughie back with me, you see."
"Not so very long, Thomas," said the mother, her dark face lighting
with a look of love as she glanced up at her big son. "And I am
glad to see Hughie. He will excuse me from rising," she added,
with fine courtesy.
Hughie hurried toward her.
"Yes, indeed, Mrs. Finch. Don't think of rising." But he could
get no further. Boy as he was, and at the age when boys are most
heartless and regardless, he found it hard to keep his lip and his
voice steady and to swallow the lump in his throat, and in spite of
all he could do his eyes were filling up with tears as he looked
into the little woman's face, so worn and weary, so pathetically
bright.
It was months since he had seen her, and during these months a
great change had come to her and to the Finch household. After
suffering long in secret, the mother had been forced to confess to
a severe pain in her breast and under her arm. Upon examination
the doctor pronounced the case to be malignant cancer, and there
was nothing for it but removal. It was what Dr. Grant called "a
very beautiful operation, indeed," and now she was recovering her
strength, but only slowly, so slowly that Thomas at times found his
heart sink with a vague fear. But it was not the pain of the wound
that had wrought that sweet, pathetic look into the little woman's
face, but the deeper pain she carried in her heart for those she
loved better than herself.
The mother's sickness brought many changes into the household, but
the most striking of all the changes was that wrought in the slow
and stolid Thomas. The father and Billy Jack were busy with the
farm matters outside, upon little Jessac, now a girl of twelve
years, fell the care of the house, but it was Thomas that, with the
assistance of a neighbor at first, but afterwards alone, waited on
his mother, dressing the wound and nursing her. These weeks of
watching and nursing had wrought in him the subtle change that
stirred Mrs. Murray's heart as she looked at him that day, and that
made even Hughie wonder. For one thing his tongue was loosed, and
Thomas talked to his mother of all that he had seen and heard on
the way to the Cameron's and back, making much of his little visit
to the manse, and of Mrs. Murray's kindness, and enlarging upon her
promised visit, and all with such brightness and picturesqueness of
speech that Hughie listened amazed. For all the years he had known
Thomas he had never heard from his lips so many words as in the
last few minutes of talk with his mother. Then, too, Thomas seemed
to have found his fingers, for no woman could have arranged more
deftly and with gentler touch the cushions at his mother's back,
and no nurse could have measured out the medicine and prepared her
egg-nog with greater skill. Hughie could hardly believe his eyes
and ears. Was this Thomas the stolid, the clumsy, the heavy-
handed, this big fellow with the quick tongue and the clever,
gentle hand?
Meantime Jessac had set upon the table a large pitcher of rich
milk, with oat cakes and butter, and honey in the comb.
"Now, Hughie, lad, draw in and help yourself. You and Thomas will
be too hungry to wait for supper," said the mother. And Hughie,
protesting politely that he was not very hungry, proceeded to
establish the contrary, to the great satisfaction of himself and
the others.
"Now, Thomas," said the mother, "we had better cut the seed."
"Indeed, and not a seed will you cut, mother," said Thomas,
emphatically. "You may boss the job, though. I'll bring the
potatoes to the back door." And this he did, thinking it no
trouble to hitch up the team to draw the wagon into the back yard
so that his mother might have a part in the cutting of the seed
potatoes, as she had had every year of her life on the farm.
Very carefully, and in spite of her protests that she could walk
quite well, Thomas carried his mother out to her chair in the shade
of the house, arranging with tender solicitude the pillows at her
back and the rug at her feet. Then they set to work at the
potatoes.
"Mind you have two eyes in every seed, Hughie," said Jessac,
severely.
"Huh! I know. I've cut them often enough," replied Hughie,
scornfully.
"Well, look at that one, now," said Jessac, picking up a seed that
Hughie had let fall; "that's only got one eye."
"There's two," said Hughie, triumphantly.
"That's not an eye," said Jessac, pointing to a mark on the potato;
"that's where the top grew out of, isn't it, mother?"
"It is, isn't it?" appealed Hughie.
Mrs. Finch took the seed and looked at it.
"Well, there's one very good eye, and that will do."
"But isn't that the mark of the top, mother?" insisted Jessac. But
the mother only shook her head at her.
"That's right, Jessac," said Thomas, driving off with his team;
"you look after Hughie, and mother will look after you both till I
get back, and there'll be a grand crop this year."
It was a happy hour for them all. The slanting rays of the
afternoon sun filled the air with a genial warmth. A little breeze
bore from the orchard near by a fragrance of apple-blossoms. A
matronly hen, tethered by the leg to her coop, raised indignant
protest against the outrage on her personal liberty, or clucked and
crooned her invitations, counsels, warnings, and encouragements, in
as many different tones, to her independent, fluffy brood of
chicks, while a huge gobbler strutted up and down, thrilling with
pride in the glossy magnificence of his outspread tail and pompous,
mighty chest.
Hughie was conscious of a deep and grateful content, but across his
content lay a shadow. If only that would lift! As he watched
Thomas with his mother, he realized how far he had drifted from his
own mother, and he thought with regret of the happy days, which now
seemed so far in the past, when his mother had shared his every
secret. But for him those days could never come again.
At supper, Hughie was aware of some subtle difference in the spirit
of the home. As to Thomas so to his father a change had come. The
old man was as silent as ever, indeed more so, but there was no
asperity in his silence. His critical, captious manner was gone.
His silence was that of a great sorrow, and of a great fear. While
there was more cheerful conversation than ever at the table, there
was through all a new respect and a certain tender consideration
shown toward the silent old man at the head, and all joined in an
effort to draw him from his gloom. The past months of his wife's
suffering had bowed him as with the weight of years. Even Hughie
could note this.
After supper the old man "took the Books" as usual, but when, as
High Priest, he "ascended the Mount of Ordinances to offer the
evening sacrifice," he was as a man walking in thick darkness
bewildered and afraid. The prayer was largely a meditation on the
heinousness of sin and the righteous judgments of God, and closed
with an exaltation of the Cross, with an appeal that the innocent
might be spared the punishment of the guilty. The conviction had
settled in the old man's mind that "the Lord was visiting upon him
and his family his sins, his pride, his censoriousness, his
hardness of heart." The words of his prayer fell meaningless upon
Hughie's English ears, but the boy's heart quivered in response to
the agony of entreaty in the pleading tones, and he rose from his
knees awed and subdued.
There was no word spoken for some moments after the prayer. With
people like the Finches it was considered to be an insult to the
Almighty to depart from "the Presence" with any unseemly haste.
Then Thomas came to help his mother to her room, but she, with her
eyes upon her husband, quietly put Thomas aside and said, "Donald,
will you tak me ben?"
Rarely had she called him by his name before the family, and all
felt that this was a most unusual demonstration of tenderness on
her part.
The old man glanced quickly at her from under his overhanging
eyebrows, and met her bright upward look with an involuntary shake
of the head and a slight sigh. Comfort was not for him, and he
must not delude himself. But with a little laugh she put her hand
on his arm, and as if administering reproof to a little child, she
said some words in Gaelic.
"Oh, woman, woman!" said Donald in reply, "if it was yourself we
had to deal with--"
"Whisht, man! Will you be putting me before your Father in
heaven?" she said, as they disappeared into the other room.
There was no fiddle that evening. There was no heart for it with
Thomas, neither was there time, for there was the milking to do,
and the "sorting" of the pails and pans, and the preparing for
churning in the morning, so that when all was done, the long
evening had faded into the twilight and it was time for bed.
Before going upstairs, Thomas took Hughie into "the room" where his
mother's bed had been placed. Thomas gave her her medicine and
made her comfortable for the night.
"Is there nothing else now, mother?" he said, still lingering about
her.
"No, Thomas, my man. How are the cows doing?"
"Grand; Blossom filled a pail to-night, and Spotty almost twice.
She's a great milker, yon."
"Yes, and so was her mother. I remember she used to fill two pails
when the grass was good."
"I remember her, too. Her horns curled right back, didn't they?
And she always looked so fierce."
"Yes, but she was a kindly cow. And will the churn be ready for
the morning?"
"Yes, mother, we'll have buttermilk for our porridge, sure enough."
"Well, you'll need to be up early for that, too early, Thomas, lad,
for a boy like you."
"A boy like me!" said Thomas, feigning indignation, and stretching
himself to his full height. "Where would you be getting your men,
mother?"
"You are man enough, laddie," said his mother, "and a good one you
will come to be, I doubt. And you, too, Hughie, lad," she added,
turning to him. "You will be like your father."
"I dunno," said Hughie, his face flushing scarlet. He was weary
and sick of his secret, and the sight of the loving comradeship
between Thomas and his mother made his burden all the heavier.
"What's wrong with yon laddie?" asked Mrs. Finch, when Hughie had
gone away to bed.
"Now, mother, you're too sharp altogether. And how do you know
anything is wrong with him?"
"I warrant you his mother sees it. Something is on his mind.
Hughie is not the lad he used to be. He will not look at you
straight, and that is not like Hughie."
"Oh, mother, you're a sharp one," said Thomas. "I thought no one
had seen that but myself. Yes, there is something wrong with him.
It's something in the school. It's a poor place nowadays, anyway,
and I wish Hughie were done with it."
"He must keep at the school, Thomas, and I only wish you could do
the same." His mother sighed. She had her own secret ambition for
Thomas, and though she never opened her heart to her son, or indeed
to any one, Thomas somehow knew that it was her heart's desire to
see him "in the pulpit."
"Never you mind, mother," he said, brightly. "It'll all come
right. Aren't you always the one preaching faith to me?"
"Yes, laddie, and it is needed, and sorely at times."
"Now, mither," said Thomas, dropping into her native speech, "ye
mauna be fashin' yersel. Ye'll jist say 'Now I lay me,' and gang
to sleep like a bairnie."
"Ay, that's a guid word, laddie, an' a'll tak it. Ye may kiss me
guid nicht. A'll tak it."
Thomas bent over her and whispered in her ear, "Ay, mither, mither,
ye're an angel, and that ye are."
"Hoots, laddie, gang awa wi' ye," said his mother, but she held her
arms about his neck and kissed him once and again. There was no
one to see, and why should they not give and take their heart's
fill of love.
But when Thomas stood outside the room door, he folded his arms
tight across his breast and whispered with lips that quivered, "Ay,
mither, mither, mither, there's nane like ye. There's nane like
ye." And he was glad that when he went upstairs, he found Hughie
unwilling to talk.
The next three days they were all busy with the planting of the
potatoes, and nothing could have been better for Hughie. The
sweet, sunny air, and the kindly, wholesome earth and honest hard
work were life and health to mind and heart and body. It is
wonderful how the touch of the kindly mother earth cleanses the
soul from its unwholesome humors. The hours that Hughie spent in
working with the clean, red earth seemed somehow to breathe virtue
into him. He remembered the past months like a bad dream. They
seemed to him a hideous unreality, and he could not think of Foxy
and his schemes, nor of his own weakness in yielding to temptation,
without a horrible self-loathing. He became aware of a strange
feeling of sympathy and kinship with old Donald Finch. He seemed
to understand his gloom. During those days their work brought
those two together, for Billy Jack had the running of the drills,
and to Thomas was intrusted the responsibility of "dropping" the
potatoes, so Hughie and the old man undertook to "cover" after
Thomas.
Side by side they hoed together, speaking not a word for an hour at
a time, but before long the old man appeared to feel the lad's
sympathy. Hughie was quick to save him steps, and eager in many
ways to anticipate his wishes. He was quick, too, with the hoe,
and ambitious to do his full share of the work, and this won the
old man's respect, so that by the end of the first day there was
established between them a solid basis of friendship.
Old Donald Finch was no cheerful companion for Hughie, but it was
to Hughie a relief, more than anything else, that he was not much
with either Thomas or Billy Jack.
"You're tired," he ventured, in answer to a deep sigh from the old
man, toward the close of the day.
"No, laddie," replied the old man, "I know not that I am working.
The burden of toil is the least of all our burdens." And then,
after a pause, he added, "It is a terrible thing, is sin."
To an equal in age the old man would never have ventured this
confidence, but to Hughie, to his own surprise, he found it easy to
talk.
"A terrible thing," he repeated, "and it will always be finding you
out."
Hughie listened to him with a fearful sinking of heart, thinking of
himself and his sin.
"Yes," repeated the old man, with awful solemnity, "it will come up
with you at last."
"But," ventured Hughie, timidly, "won't God forgive? Won't he ever
forget?"
The old man looked at him, leaning upon his hoe.
"Yes, he will forgive. But for those who have had great
privileges, and who have sinned against light--I will not say."
The fear deepened in Hughie's heart.
"Do you mean that God will not forgive a man who has had a good
chance, an elder, or a minister, or--or--a minister's son, say,
like me?"
There was something in Hughie's tone that startled the old man. He
glanced at Hughie's face.
"What am I saying?" he cried. "It is of myself I am thinking, boy,
and of no minister or minister's son."
But Hughie stood looking at him, his face showing his terrible
anxiety. God and sin were vivid realities to him.
"Yes, yes," said the old man to himself, "it is a great gospel.
'As far as the east is distant from the west.' 'And plenteous
redemption is ever found with him.'"
"But, do you think," said Hughie, in a low voice, "God will tell
all our sins? Will he make them known?"
"God forbid!" cried the old man. "'And their sins and their
iniquities will I remember no more.' 'The depths of the sea.' No,
no, boy, he will surely forget, and he will not be proclaiming
them."
It was a strange picture. The old man leaning upon the top of his
hoe looking over at the lad, the gloom of his face irradiated with
a momentary gleam of hope, and the boy looking back at him with
almost breathless eagerness.
"It would be great," said Hughie, at last, "if he would forget."
"Yes," said the old man, the gleam in his face growing brighter,
"'If we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us,'
and forgiving with him is forgetting. Ah, yes, it is a great
gospel," he continued, and standing there he lifted up his hand and
broke into a kind of chant in Gaelic, of which Hughie could catch
no meaning, but the exalted look on the old man's face was
translation enough.
"Must we always tell?" said Hughie, after the old man had ceased.
"What are you saying, laddie?"
"I say must we always tell our sins--I mean to people?"
The old man thought a moment. "It is not always good to be talking
about our sins to people. That is for God to hear. But we must be
ready to make right what is wrong."
"Yes, yes," said Hughie, eagerly, "of course one would be glad to
do that."
The old man gave him one keen glance, and began hoeing again.
"Ye'd better be asking ye're mother about that. She will know."
"No, no," said Hughie, "I can't."
The old man paused in his work, looked at the boy for a moment or
two, and then went on working again.
"Speak to my woman," he said, after a few strokes of his hoe.
"She's a wonderful wise woman." And Hughie wished that he dared.
During the days of the planting they became great friends, and to
their mutual good. The mother's keen eyes noted the change both in
Hughie and in her husband, and was glad for it. It was she that
suggested to Billy Jack that he needed help in the back pasture
with the stones. Billy Jack, quick to take her meaning, eagerly
insisted that help he must have, indeed he could not get on with
the plowing unless the stones were taken off. And so it came that
Hughie and the old man, with old Fly hitched up in the stone-boat,
spent two happy and not unprofitable days in the back pasture.
Gravely they discussed the high themes of God's sovereignty and
man's freedom, with all their practical issues upon conduct and
destiny. Only once, and that very shyly, did the old man bring
round the talk to the subject of their first conversation that
meant so much to them both.
"The Lord will not be wanting to shame us beyond what is
necessary," he said. "There are certain sins which he will bring
to light, but there are those that, in his mercy, he permits us to
hide; provided always," he added, with emphasis, "we are done with
them."
"Yes, indeed," assented Hughie, eagerly, "and who wouldn't be done
with them?"
But the old man shook his head sadly.
"If that were always true a man would soon be rid of his evil
heart. But," he continued, as if eager to turn the conversation,
"you will be talking with my woman about it. She's a wonderful
wise woman, yon."
Somehow the opportunity came to Hughie to take the old man's
advice. On Saturday evening, just before leaving for home, he
found himself alone with Mrs. Finch sitting beside the open window,
watching the sun go down behind the trees.
"What a splendid sunset!" he cried. He was ever sensitive to the
majestic drama of nature.
"Ay," said Mrs. Finch, "the clouds and the sun make wonderful
beauty together, but without the sun the clouds are ugly things.
Hughie quickly took her meaning.
"They are not pleasant," he said.
"No, not pleasant," she replied, "but with the sunlight upon them
they are wonderful."
Hughie was silent for some moments, and then suddenly burst out,
"Mrs. Finch, does God forget sins, and will he keep them hid, from
people, I mean?"
"Ay," she said, with quiet conviction, "he will forget, and he will
hide them. Why should he lay the burden of our sins upon others?
And if he does not why should we?"
"Do you mean we need not always tell? I'd like to tell my--some
one."
"Ay," she replied, "it's a weary wark and a lanely to carry it oor
lane, but it's an awfu' grief to hear o' anither's sin. An awfu'
grief," she repeated to herself.
"But," burst out Hughie, "I'll never be right till I tell my
mother."
"Ay, and then it is she would be carrying the weight o' it."
"But it's against her," said Hughie, his hands going up to his
face. "Oh, Mrs. Finch, it's just awful mean. I don't know how I
did it."
"Ye can tell me, laddie, if ye will," said she, kindly, and Hughie
poured forth the whole burden that had lain so long upon him, but
he told it laying upon Foxy small blame, for during those days, his
own part had come to bulk so large with him that Foxy's was almost
forgotten.
For some moments after he had done Mrs. Finch sat in silence,
leaning forward and patting the boy's bowed head.
"Ay, but he is rightly named," she said, at length.
"Who?" asked Hughie, surprised.
"Yon store-keepin' chiel." Then she added, "But ye're done wi' him
and his tricks, and ye'll stand up against him and be a man for the
wee laddies."
"Oh, I don't know," said Hughie, too sick at heart and too
penetrated with the miserable sense of his own meanness and
cowardice, to make any promise.
"And as tae ye're mither, laddie," went on Mrs. Finch, "it will be
a sair burden for her." When Mrs. Finch was greatly moved she
always dropped into her broadest Scotch.
"Oh, yes, I know," said Hughie, his voice now broken with sobs,
"and that's the worst of it. If I didn't have to tell her! She'll
just break her heart, I know. She thinks I'm so--oh, oh--" The
long pent up feelings came flooding forth in groans and sobs.
For some moments Mrs. Finch sat quietly, and then she said,
"Listen, laddie. There is Another to be thought of first."
"Another?" asked Hughie. "Oh, yes, I know. But He knows already,
and indeed I have often told Him. But besides, you say He will
forget, and take it away. But mother doesn't know, and doesn't
suspect."
"Well, then, laddie," said Mrs. Finch, with quiet firmness, "let
her tell ye what to do. Mak ye're offer to tell her, and warn her
that it'll grieve ye baith, and then let her say."
"Yes, I'll do it. I'll do it to-night, and if she says so, then
I'll tell her."
And so he did, and when he came back to the Finch's on Monday
morning, for his mother saw that leaving school for a time would be
no serious loss, and a week or two with the Finches might be a
great gain, he came radiant to Mrs. Finch, and finding her in her
chair by the open window alone, he burst forth, "I told her, and
she wouldn't let me. She didn't want to know so long as I said it
was all made right. And she promised she would trust me just the
same. Oh, she's splendid, my mother! And she's coming this week
to see you. And I tell you I just feel like--like anything! I
can't keep still. I'm like Fido when he's let off his chain. He
just goes wild."
Then, after a pause, he added, in a graver tone, "And mother read
Zaccheus to me. And isn't it fine how He never said a word to
him?"--Hughie was too excited to be coherent--"but stood up for
him, and"--here Hughie's voice became more grave--"I'm going to
restore fourfold. I'm going to work at the hay, and I fired that
old pistol into the pond, and I'm not afraid of Foxy any more, not
a bit."
Hughie rushed breathlessly through his story, while the dark face
before him glowed with intelligent sympathy, but she only said,
when he had done, "It is a graund thing to be free, is it no'?"