Christine's marriage took place while Paul and Moya were lingering in the
Bruneau, for Paul's health ostensibly. Banks and Horace had been left to
the smiling irony of justice. They never had a straight chance to define
their conduct in the woods; for no one accused them. No awkward questions
were asked in the city drawing-rooms or at the clubs. For a tough half
hour or so at Fort Lemhi they had realized how they stood in the eyes of
those unbiased military judges. The shock had a bracing effect for a time.
Both boys were said to be much improved by their Western trip and by the
hardships of that frightful homeward march.
Mrs. Bogardus had matched her gift of Stone Ridge to her son, which was a
gift of sentiment, with one of more substantial value to her
daughter,--the income from certain securities settled upon her and her
heirs. Banks was carefully unprovided for. The big house in town was full
of ghosts--the ghosts that haunt such homes, made desolate by a breach of
hearts. The city itself was crowded with opportunities for giving and
receiving pain between mother and daughter. Christine had developed all
the latent hardness of her mother's race with a sickly frivolity of her
own. She made a great show of faith in her marriage venture. She boomed it
in her occasional letters, which were full of scarce concealed bravado as
graceful as snapping her fingers in her mother's face.
Mrs. Bogardus leased her house in town, and retired before the ghosts, but
not escaping them; Stone Ridge must be put in order for its new master and
mistress, and Stone Ridge had its own ghosts. She informed her absentees
that, before their return, she should have left for Southern California to
look after some investments which she had neglected there of late. It was
then she spoke of her plan for restoring the old house by pulling down
that addition which disfigured it; and Paul had objected to this erasure.
It would take from the house's veracity, he said. The words carried their
unintentional sting.
But it was Moya's six lines at the bottom of his page that changed and
softened everything. Moya--always blessed when she took the
initiative--contrived, as swiftly as she could set them down, to say the
very words that made the home-coming a coming home indeed.
"Will Madam Bogardus be pleased to keep her place as the head of her son's
house?" she wrote. "This foolish person he has married wants to be
anything rather than the mistress of Stone Ridge. She wants to be always
out of doors, and she needs to be. Oh, must you go away now--now when we
need you so much? It cannot be said here on paper how much I need you!
Am I not your motherless daughter? Please be there when we come, and
please stay there!"
"For a little while then," said the lonely woman, smiling at the image of
that sweet, foolish person in her thoughts. "For a little while, till she
learns her mistake." Such mistakes are the cornerstone of family
friendship.
* * * * *
It was an uneventful summer on the Hill, but one of rather wearing
intensity in the inner relations of the household, one with another; for
nothing could be quite natural with a pit of concealment to be avoided by
all, and an air of unconsciousness to be carefully preserved in avoiding
it. Moya's success in this way was so remarkable that Paul half hated it.
How was it possible for her to speak to his mother so lightly; never the
least apparent premeditation or fear of tripping; how look at her with
such sweet surface looks that never questioned or saw beneath? He could
not meet his mother's eyes at all when they were alone together, or endure
a silence in her company.
Both women were of the type called elemental. They understood each other
without knowing why. Moya felt the desperate truth contained in the
mother's falsehood, and broke forth into passionate defense of her as
against her husband's silence.
He answered her one day by looking up a little green book of fairy tales
and reading aloud this fragment of "The Golden Key."
"'I never tell lies, even in fun.' (The mysterious Grandmother speaks.)
"'How good of you!' (says the Child in the Wood.)
"'I couldn't if I tried. It would come true if I said it, and then I
should be punished enough.'"
Moya's eyes narrowed reflectively.
"How constantly you are thinking of this! I think of it only when I am
with you. As if a woman like your mother, who has done one thing, should
be all that thing, and nothing more to us, her children!"
Moya was giving herself up, almost immorally, Paul sometimes thought, to
the fascination Mrs. Bogardus's personality had for her. In a keenly
susceptible state herself, at that time, there was something calming and
strengthening in the older woman's perfected beauty, her physical poise,
and the fitness of everything she did and said and wore to the given
occasion. As a dark woman she was particularly striking in summer
clothing. Her white effects were tremendous. She did not pretend to study
these matters herself, but in years of experience, with money to spend,
she had learned well in whom to confide. When women are shut up together
in country houses for the summer, they can irritate each other in the most
foolish ways. Mrs. Bogardus never got upon your nerves.
But, for Paul, there was a poison in his mother's beauty, a dread in her
influence over his impressionable young wife, thrilled with the awakening
forces of her consonant being. Moya would drink deep of every cup that
life presented. Motherhood was her lesson for the day. "She is a queen of
mothers!" she would exclaim with an abandon that was painful to Paul; he
saw deformity where Moya was ready to kneel. "I love her perfect love for
you--for me, even! She is above all jealousy. She doesn't even ask to be
understood."
Paul was silent.
"And oh, she knows, she knows! She has been through it all--in such
despair and misery--all that is before me, with everything in the world to
make it easy and all the beautiful care she gives me. She is the supreme
mother. And I never had a mother to speak to before. Don't, don't, please,
keep putting that dreadful thing between us now!"
So Paul took the dreadful thing away with him and was alone with it, and
knew that his mother saw it in his eyes when their eyes met and avoided.
When, after a brief household absence, he would see her again he wondered,
"Has she been alone with it? Has it passed into another phase?"--as of an
incurable disease that must take its time and course.
Mrs. Bogardus did not spare her conscience in social ways all this time.
It was a part of her life to remember that she had neighbors--certain
neighbors. She included Paul without particularly consulting him whenever
it was proper for him to support her in her introduction of his wife to
the country-house folk, many of whom they knew in town.
All his mother's friends liked Paul and supposed him to be very clever,
but they had never taken him seriously. "Now, at last," they said, "he has
done something like other people. He is coming out." Experienced matrons
were pleased to flatter him on his choice of a bride. The daughters
studied Moya, and decided that she was "different," but "all right." She
had a careless distinction of her own. Some of her "things" were
surprisingly lovely--probably heirlooms; and army women are so clever
about clothes.
Would they spend the winter in town?
Paul replied absently: they had not decided. Probably they would not go
down till after the holidays.
What an attractive plan? What an ideal family Christmas they would have
all together in the country! Christine had not been up all summer, had
she? Here Moya came to her husband's relief, through a wife's dual
consciousness in company, and covered his want of spirits with a flood of
foolish chatter.
The smiling way in which women the most sincere can posture and prance on
the brink of dissimulation was particularly sickening to Paul at this
time. Why need they put themselves in situations where it was required?
The situations were of his mother's creation. He imagined she must suffer,
but had little sympathy with that side of her martyrdom. Moya seemed a
trifle feverish in her acceptance of these affairs of which she was
naturally the life and centre. A day of entertaining often faded into an
evening of subtle sadness.
Paul would take her out into the moonlight of that deep inland country.
The trees were dark with leaves and brooded close above them; old
water-fences and milldams cast inky shadows on the still, shallow ponds
clasped in wooded hills. No region could have offered a more striking
contrast to the empty plains. Moya felt shut in with old histories. The
very ground was but moulding sand in which generations of human lives had
been poured, and the sand swept over to be reshaped for them.
"We are not living our own life yet," Paul would say; not adding, "We are
protecting her." Here was the beginning of punishment helplessly meted out
to this proud woman whose sole desire was towards her children--to give,
and not to receive.
"But this is our Garden?" Moya would muse. "We are as nearly two alone as
any two could be."
"If you include the Snake. We can't leave out the Snake, you know."
"Snake or Seraph--I don't believe I know the difference. Paul, I cannot
have you thinking things."
"I?--what do I think?"
"You are thinking it is bad for me to be so much with her. You, as a man
and a husband, resent what she, as a woman and a wife, has dared to do.
And I, as another woman and wife, I say she could do nothing else and be
true. For, don't you see? She never loved him. The wifehood in her has
never been reached. She was a girl, then a mother, then a widow. How could
she"--
"Do you think he would have claimed her as his wife? Oh, you do not know
him;--she has never known him. If we could be brave and face our duty to
the whole truth, and leave the rest to those sequences, never dreamed of,
that wait upon great acts. Such surprises come straight from God. Now we
can never know how he would have risen to meet a nobler choice in her. He
had not far to rise! Well, we have our share of blessings, including
piazza teas; but as a family we have missed one of the greatest spiritual
opportunities,--such as come but once in a lifetime."
"Ah, if she was not ready for it, it was not her opportunity. God is
very patient with us, I believe."