A small boy crept into the darkened hut. The unglazed windows were roughly
curtained with skins, but there was sufficient light from the open doorway
to show him what he wanted. He tiptoed to a corner where an old travelling
trunk lay under a pile of dirty clothes. He opened it very carefully, and
after a little searching found the thing he sought. Then he gently closed
it, and, with a look towards the bed in the other corner, he slipped out
again into the warm October afternoon.
The woman on the bed stirred uneasily and suddenly became fully awake,
after the way of those who are fluttering very near death. She was still
young, and the little face among the coarse homespun blankets looked almost
childish. Heavy masses of black hair lay on the pillow, and the depth of
its darkness increased the pallor of her brow. But the cheeks were flushed,
and the deep hazel eyes were burning with a slow fire. . . . For a week
the milk-sick fever had raged furiously, and in the few hours free from
delirium she had been racked with omnipresent pain and deadly sickness. Now
those had gone, and she was drifting out to sea on a tide of utter
weakness. Her husband, Tom Linkhorn, thought she mending, and was even now
whistling--the first time for weeks--by the woodpile. But the woman knew
that she was close to the great change, and so deep was her weariness that
the knowledge remained an instinct rather than a thought. She was as
passive as a dying animal. The cabin was built of logs, mortised into each
other--triangular in shape, with a fireplace in one corner. Beside the fire
stood a table made of a hewn log, on which lay some pewter dishes
containing the remains of he last family meal. One or two three-legged
stools made up the rest of the furniture, except for the trunk in the
corner and the bed. This bed was Tom Linkhorn's pride, which he used to
boast about to his friends, for he was a tolerable carpenter. It was made
of plank stuck between the logs of the wall, and supported at the other end
by crotched sticks. By way of a curtain top a hickory post had been sunk in
the floor and bent over the bed, the end being fixed in the log wall. Tom
meant to have a fine skin curtain fastened to it when winter came. The
floor was of beaten earth, but there was a rough ceiling of smaller logs,
with a trap in it which could be reached by pegs stuck the centre post. In
that garret the children slept. Tom's building zeal had come to an end with
the bed. Some day he meant to fit in a door and windows, but these luxuries
could wait till he got his clearing in better order.
On a stool by the bed stood a wooden bowl containing gruel. The woman had
not eaten for days, and the stuff had a thick scum on it. The place was
very stuffy, for it was a hot and sickly autumn day and skins which
darkened the window holes kept out the little freshness that was in the
air. Beside the gruel was a tin pannikin of cold water which the boy ,Abe
fetched every hour from the spring. She saw the water, but was too weak to
reach it.
The shining doorway was blocked by a man's entrance. Tom Linkhorn was a
little over middle height, with long muscular arms, and the corded neck
sinews which tell of great strength. He had a shock of coarse black hair,
grey eyes and a tired sallow face, as of one habitually overworked and
underfed. His jaw was heavy, but loosely put together, so that he presented
an air of weakness and irresolution. His lips were thick and pursed in a
kind of weary good humour. He wore an old skin shirt and a pair of towlinen
pants, which flapped about his bare brown ankles. A fine sawdust coated his
hair and shoulders, for he had been working in the shed where he eked out
his farming by making spinning wheels for his neighbours.
He came softly to the bedside and looked down at his wife. His face was
gentle and puzzled.
"Reckon you're better, dearie," he said in a curious harsh toneless voice.
The sick woman moved her head feebly in the direction of the stool and he
lifted the pannikin of water to her lips.
"Cold enough?" he asked, and his wife nodded. "Abe fetches it as reg'lar as
a clock."
"Where's Abe?" she asked, and her voice for all its feebleness had a
youthful music in it.
"I heerd him sayin' he was goin' down to the crick to cotch a fish. He
reckoned you'd fancy a fish when you could eat a piece. He's a mighty
thoughtful boy, our Abe. Then he was comin' to read to you. You'd like
that, dearie?"
The sick woman made no sign. Her eyes were vacantly regarding the doorway.
"I've got to leave you now. I reckon I'll borrow the Dawneys' sorrel horse
and ride into Gentryville. I've got the young hogs to sell, and I'll fetch
back the corn-meal from Hickson's. Sally Hickson was just like you last
fall, and I want to find out from Jim how she got her strength up."
He put a hand on her brow, and felt it cool.
"Glory! You're mendin' fast, Nancy gal. You'll be well in time to can the
berries that the childern's picked. He fished from below the bed a pair of
skin brogues and slipped them on his feet. "I'll be back before night."
"I want Abe," she moaned.
"I'll send him to you," he said as he went out
Left alone the woman lay still for a little in a stupor of weariness. Waves
of that terrible lassitude, which is a positive anguish and not a mere
absence of strength, flowed over her. The square of the doorway, which was
directly before her eyes, began to take strange forms. It was filled with
yellow sunlight, and a red glow beyond told of the sugar-maples at the edge
of the clearing. Now it seemed to her unquiet sight to be a furnace.
Outside the world was burning; she could feel the heat of it in the close
cabin. For a second acute fear startled her weakness. It passed, her eyes
cleared, and she saw the homely doorway as it was, and heard the gobble of
a turkey in the forest.
The fright had awakened her mind and senses. For the first time she fully
realised her condition. Life no longer moved steadily in her body; it
flickered and wavered and would soon gutter out. . . . Her eyes marked
every detail of the squalor around her--the unwashed dishes, the foul
earthen floor, the rotting apple pile, the heap of rags which had been her
only clothes. She was leaving the world, and this was all she had won from
it. Sheer misery forced a sigh which seemed to rend her frail body, and her
eyes filled with tears. She had been a dreamer, an adept at make-believe,
but the poor coverings she had wrought for a dingy reality were now too
threadbare to hide it.
And once she had been so rich in hope. She would make her husband a great
man, and--when that was manifestly impossible without a rebirth of Tom
Linkhorn--she would have a son who would wear a black coat like Lawyer
Macneil and Colonel Hardin way back in Kentucky, and make fine speeches
beginning "Fellow countrymen and gentlemen of this famous State." She had a
passion for words, and sonorous phrases haunted her memory. She herself
would have a silk gown and a bonnet with roses in it; once long ago she had
been to Elizabethtown and seen just such a gown and bonnet. . . . Or Tom
would be successful in this wild Indiana country and be, like Daniel Boone,
the father of a new State, and have places and towns called for him--a
Nancyville perhaps or a Linkhorn County. She knew about Daniel Boone, for
her grandfather Hanks had been with him. . . . And there had been other
dreams, older dreams, dating far back to the days when she was a little
girl with eyes like a brown owl. Someone had told her fairy-tales about
princesses and knights, strange beings which she never quite understood,
but of which she made marvellous pictures in her head She had learned to
read in order to follow up the doings of those queer bright folk, but she
had never tracked them down again. But one book she had got called The
Pilgrim's Progress, printed by missionaries in a far-away city called
Philadelphia, which told of things as marvellous, and had pictures,
too--one especially of a young man covered with tin, which she supposed was
what they called armour. And there was another called The Arabian
Knights, a close-printed thing difficult to read by the winter fire, full
of wilder doings than any she could imagine for herself; but beautiful,
too, and delicious to muse over, though Tom, when she read a chapter to
him, had condemned it as a pack of lies. . . . Clearly there was a world
somewhere, perhaps outside America altogether, far more wonderful than even
the magnificence of Colonel Hardin. Once she had hoped to find it herself;
then that her children should find it. And the end was this shack in the
wilderness, a few acres of rotting crops, bitter starving winters, summers
of fever, the deeps of poverty, a penniless futureless family, and for
herself a coffin of green lumber and a yard or two of stony soil.
She saw everything now with the clear unrelenting eyes of childhood. The
films she had woven for selfprotection were blown aside. She was dying--she
had often wondered how she should feel when dying--humble and trustful, she
had hoped, for she was religious after a fashion, and had dreamed herself
into an affection for a kind fatherly God. But now all that had gone. She
was bitter, like one defrauded She had been promised something, and had
struggled on in the assurance of it. And the result was nothing--nothing.
Tragic tears filled her eyes. She had been so hungry' and there was to be
no satisfying that hunger this side the grave or beyond it. She was going
the same way as Betsy Sparrow, a death like a cow's, with nothing to show
for life, nothing to leave. Betsy had been a poor crushed creature, and had
looked for no more. But she was different. She had been promised something,
something fine--she couldn't remember what, or who had
promised it, but it had never been out of her mind.
There was the ring, too. No woman in Indiana had the like of that. An ugly
thing, but very ancient and of pure gold. Once Tom had wanted to sell it
when he was hard-pressed back at Nolin Creek, but she had fought for it
like a tigress and scared the life out of Tom. Her grandfather had left it
her because she was his favourite and it had been her grandmothers, and
long ago had come from Europe. It was lucky, and could cure rheumatism if
worn next the heart in a skin bag. . . . All her thoughts were suddenly
set on the ring, her one poor shred of fortune. She wanted to feel it on
her finger, and press its cool gold with the queer markings on her eyelids.
But Tom had gone away and she couldn't reach the trunk in the corner. Tears
trickled down her cheeks and through the mist of them she saw that the boy
Abe stood at the foot of the bed.
"Feelin' comfortabler?" he asked. He had a harsh untunable voice, his
father's, but harsher, and he spoke the drawling dialect of the backwoods.
His figure stood in the light, so that the dying mother saw only its
outline. He was a boy about nine years old, but growing too fast, so that
he had lost the grace of childhood and was already lanky and ungainly. As
he turned his face crosswise to the light he revealed a curiously rugged
profile--a big nose springing sharply from the brow, a thick underhung
lower lip, and the beginning of a promising Adam's apple. His stiff black
hair fell round his great ears, which stood out like the handles of a
pitcher. He was barefoot, and wore a pair of leather breeches and a ragged
homespun shirt. Beyond doubt he was ugly.
He moved round to the right side of the bed where he was wholly in shadow.
"My lines is settin' nicely," he said. "I'll have a fish for your supper.
And then I'm goin' to take dad's gun and fetch you a turkey. You could eat
a slice of a fat turkey, I reckon."
The woman did not answer, for she was thinking. This uncouth boy was the
son she had put her faith in. She loved him best of all things on earth,
but for the moment she saw him in the hard light of disillusionment. A
loutish backwoods child, like Dennis Hanks or Tom Sparrow or anybody else.
He had been a comfort to her, for he had been quick to learn and had a
strange womanish tenderness in his ways. But she was leaving him, and he
would grow up like his father before him to a life of ceaseless toil with
no daylight or honour in it. . . . She almost hated the sight of him, for
he was the memorial of her failure.
The boy did not guess these thoughts. He pulled up a stool and sat very
close to the bed, holding his mother's frail wrist in a sunburnt hand so
big that it might have been that of a lad half-way through his teens. He
had learned in the woods to be neat and precise in his ways, and his
movements, for all his gawky look, were as soft as a panther's.
"Like me to tell you a story?" he asked. "What about Uncle Mord's tale of
Dan'l Boone at the Blue Licks Battle?"
There was no response, so he tried again.
Or read a piece? It was the Bible last time, but the words is mighty
difficult. Besides you don't need it that much now. You're gettin' better.
. . . Let's hear about the ol'Pilgrim."
He found a squat duodecimo in the trunk, and shifted the skin curtain from
one of the window holes to get light to read by. His mother lay very still
with her eyes shut, but he knew by her breathing that she was not asleep.
He ranged through the book, stopping to study the crude pictures, and then
started laboriously to read the adventures of Christian and Hopeful after
leaving Vanity Fair--the mine of Demas, the plain called Ease, Castle
Doubting, and the Delectable Mountains. He boggled over some of the words,
but on the whole he read well, and his harsh voice dropped into a pleasant
sing-song.
By and by he noticed that his mother was asleep. He took the tin pannikin
and filled it with fresh water from the spring. Then he kissed the hand
which lay on the blanket, looked about guiltily to see if anyone had seen
him, for kisses were rare in that household and tiptoes out again.
The woman slept, but not wholly. The doorway, which was now filled with the
deeper gold of the westering sun, was still in her vision. It had grown to
a great square of light, and instead of being blocked in the foreground by
the forest it seemed to give on an infinite distance. She had a sense not
of looking out of a hut, but of looking from without into a great chamber.
Peace descended on her which she had never known before in her feverish
dreams, peace and a happy expectation.
She had not listened to Abe's reading, but some words of it had caught her
ear. The phrase "delectable mountains" for one. She did not know what
"delectable" meant, but it sounded good; and mountains, though she had
never seen more of them than a far blue line, had always pleased her fancy.
Now she seemed to be looking at them through that magical doorway. . . .
The country was not like anything she remembered in the Kentucky bluegrass,
still less like the shaggy woods of Indiana. The turf was short and very
green, and the hills fell into gracious folds that promised homesteads in
every nook of them. It was a "delectable" country--yes, that was the
meaning of the word that had puzzled her. . . . She had seen the picture
before in her head. She remembered one hot Sunday afternoon when she was a
child hearing a Baptist preacher discoursing on a Psalm, something about
the "little hills rejoicing." She had liked the words and made a picture in
her mind. These were the little hills and they were joyful.
There was a white road running straight through them till it disappeared
over a crest. That was right, of course. The road which the Pilgrims
travelled. . . . And there, too, was a Pilgrim.
He was a long way off, but she could see him quite clearly. He was a boy,
older than Abe, but about the same size--a somewhat forlorn figure, who
seemed as if he had a great way to go and was oppressed by the knowledge of
it. He had funny things on his legs and feet, which were not proper
moccasins. Once he looked back, and she had a glimpse of fair hair. He
could not be any of the Hanks or Linkhorn kin, for they were all dark. . .
. But he had something on his left arm which she recognised--a thick ring
of gold. It was her own ring, the ring she kept in the trunk and she smiled
comfortably. She had wanted it a little while ago, and now there it was
before her eyes. She had no anxiety about its safety, for somehow it
belonged to that little boy as well as to her.
His figure moved fast and was soon out of sight round a turn of the hill.
And with that the landscape framed in the doorway began to waver and
dislimn. The road was still there, white and purposeful, but the environs
were changing. . . . She was puzzled, but with a pleasant confusion. Her
mind was not on the landscape, but on the people, for she was assured that
others would soon appear on the enchanted stage.
He ran across the road, shouting with joy, a dog at his heels and a bow in
his hand. Before he disappeared she marked the ring, this time on his
finger. . . . He had scarcely gone ere another appeared on the road, a
slim pale child, dressed in some stuff that gleamed like satin, and mounted
on a pony. . . . The spectacle delighted her, for it brought her in mind of
the princes she had been told of in fairytales. And there was the ring,
worn over a saffron riding glove. . . .
A sudden weakness made her swoon; and out of it she woke to a consciousness
of the hut where she lay. She had thought she was dead and in heaven among
fair children, and the waking made her long for her own child. Surely that
was Abe in the doorway. . . . No, it was a taller and older lad, oddly
dressed, but he had a look of Abe--something in his eyes. He was on the
road too, and marching purposefully--and he had the ring. Even in her
mortal frailty she had a quickening of the heart. These strange people had
something to do with her, something to tell her, and that something was
about her son. . . .
There was a new boy in the picture. A dejected child who rubbed the ring on
his small breeches and played with it, looking up now and then with a
frightened start. The woman's heart ached for him, for she knew her own
life-long malady. He was hungry for something which he had small hope of
finding. . . . And then a wind seemed to blow out-of-doors and the world
darkened down to evening. But her eyes pierced the gloaming easily, and she
saw very plain the figure of a man.
He was sitting hunched up, with his chin in his hands, gazing into vacancy.
Without surprise she recognised something in his face that was her own. He
wore the kind of hunter's clothes that old folk had worn in her childhood,
and a long gun lay across his knees. His air was sombre and wistful, and
yet with a kind of noble content in it. He had Abe's puckered-up lips and
Abe's steady sad eyes. . . . Into her memory came a verse of the
Scriptures which had always fascinated her. "These all died in faith, not
having received the promises, but having seen them afar off, and were
persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that they were
strangers and pilgrims upon the earth "
She saw it all in a flash of enlightenment. These seekers throughout the
ages had been looking for something and had not found it. But Abe, her son,
was to find it. That was why she had been shown those pictures.
Once again she looked through the door into bright sunshine. It was a place
that she knew beside the Ohio she remembered the tall poplar clump. She did
not see the Jacksons' farm which stood south of the trees, but there was
the Indian
graveyard, which as a little girl she had been afraid to pass. Now it
seemed to be fresh made, for painted vermilion wands stood about the
mounds. On one of them was a gold trinket, tied by a loop of hide, rattled
in the wind. It was her ring. The seeker lay buried there with the talisman
above him.
She was awake now, oblivious of the swift sinking of her vital energy. She
must have the ring, for it was the pledge of a great glory. . . .
A breathless little girl flung herself into the cabin. It was Sophy Hanks,
one of the many nieces who squattered like ducks about the settlement.
"Mammy!" she cried shrilly. "Mammy Linkorn!" She stammered with the
excitement of the bearer of ill news. "Abe's lost your ring in the crick.
He took it for a sinker to his lines, for Indian Jake telled him a piece of
gold would cotch the grit fish. And a grit fish has cotched it. Abe's bin
divn' and divn' and can't find it nohow. He reckons it's plumb Ain't he a
bad 'un, Mammy Linkhorn?"
It was some time before the dying woman understood. Then she began feebly
to cry. For the moment her ring loomed large in her eyes: it was the
earnest of the promise, and without it the promise might fail. She had not
strength to speak or even to sob, and the tears trickled over her cheeks in
dumb impotent misery.
She was roused by the culprit Abe. He stood beside her with his wet hair
streaked into a fringe along his brow. The skin of his neck glistened wet
in the opening of his shirt. His cheeks too glistened, but not with the
water of the creek. He was crying bitterly.
He had no words of explanation or defence. His thick underlip stuck out and
gave him the appeal of a penitent dog; the tears had furrowed paler
channels down grimy cheeks; he was the very incarnation of uncouth misery.
But his mother saw none of these things. . . . On the instant he seemed to
her transfigured. Something she saw in him of all the generations of
pleading boys that had passed before her, something of the stern confidence
of the man over whose grave the ring had fluttered. But more--far more. She
was assured that the day of the seekers had passed and that the finder had
come. . . . The young features were transformed into the lines of a man's
strength. The eyes dreamed but also commanded, the loose mouth had the gold
of wisdom and the steel of resolution. The promise had not failed her. . .
. She had won everything from life, for she had given the world a master.
Words seemed to speak themselves in her ear . . . "Bethink you of the
blessedness. Every wife is like the Mother of God and has the hope of
bearing a saviour of mankind."
She lay very still in her great joy. The boy in a fright sprang to her
side, knocking over the stool with the pannikin of water. He knelt on the
floor and hid his face in the bed-clothes. Her hand found his shaggy head.
Her voice was very faint now, but he heard it.
"Don't cry, little Abe," she said. "Don't you worry about the ring, dearie.
It ain't needed no more.
Half an hour later, when the cabin door was dim with twilight, the hand
which the boy held grew cold.