Charmian sighed, bit the end of her pen, and sighed again. She
was deep in her housekeeping accounts, adding and subtracting
and, between whiles, regarding the result with a rueful frown.
Her sleeves were rolled up over her round, white arms, and I
inwardly wondered if the much vaunted Phryne's were ever more
perfect in their modelling, or of a fairer texture. Had I
possessed the genius of a Praxiteles I might have given to the
world a masterpiece of beauty to replace his vanished Venus of
Cnidus; but, as it happened, I was only a humble blacksmith, and
she a fair woman who sighed, and nibbled her pen, and sighed
again.
"What is it, Charmian?"
"Compound addition, Peter, and I hate figures I detest, loathe,
and abominate them--especially when they won't balance!"
"Then never mind them," said I.
"Never mind them, indeed--the idea, Sir! How can I help minding
them when living costs so much and we so poor?"
"Are we?" said I.
"Why, of course we are."
"Yes--to be sure--I suppose we are," said I dreamily.
Lais was beautiful, Thais was alluring, and Berenice was famous
for her beauty, but then, could either of them have shown such
arms--so long, so graceful in their every movement, so subtly
rounded in their lines, arms which, for all their seeming
firmness, must (I thought) be wonderfully soft to the touch, and
smooth as ivory, and which found a delicate sheen where the light
kissed them?
"We have spent four shillings for meat this week, Peter!" said
Charmian, glancing up suddenly.
"Good!" said I.
"Nonsense, sir--four shillings is most extravagant!"
"Oh!--is it, Charmian?"
"Why, of course it is."
"Oh!" said I; "yes--perhaps it is."
"Perhaps!" said she, curling her lip at me, "perhaps, indeed!"
Having said which, Charmian became absorbed in her accounts
again, and I in Charmian.
In Homer we may read that the loveliness of Briseis caused
Achilles much sorrow; Ovid tells us that Chione was beautiful
enough to inflame two gods, and that Antiope's beauty drew down
from heaven the mighty Jove himself; and yet, was either of them
formed and shaped more splendidly than she who sat so near me,
frowning at what she had written, and petulantly biting her pen?
"Impossible!" said I, so suddenly that Charmian started and
dropped her pen, which I picked up, feeling very like a fool.
"What did you mean by 'impossible,' Peter?"
"I was--thinking merely."
"Then I wish you wouldn't think so suddenly next time."
"I beg your pardon."
"Nor be so very emphatic about it."
"No," said I, "er--no." Hereupon, deigning to receive her pen
back again, she recommenced her figuring, while I began to fill
my pipe.
"Two shillings for tea!"
"Excellent!" said I.
"I do wish," she sighed, raising her head to shake it
reproachfully at me, "that you would be a little more sensible."
"I'll try."
"Tea at twelve shillings a pound is a luxury!"
"Undoubtedly!"
"And to pay two shillings for a luxury when we are so poor--is
sinful!"
"Is it, Charmian?"
"Of course it is."
"Oh!" said I; "and yet, life without tea--more especially as you
brew it--would be very stale, flat, and unprofitable, and--"
"Bacon and eggs--one shilling and fourpence!" she went on,
consulting her accounts.
"Ah!" said I, not venturing on "good," this time.
"Butter--one shilling!"
"Hum!" said I cautiously, and with the air of turning this over
in my mind.
"Vegetables--tenpence!"
"To be sure," said I, nodding my head, "tenpence, certainly."
"And bread, Peter" (this in a voice of tragedy) "--eightpence."
"Excellent!" said I recklessly, whereat Charmian immediately
frowned at me.
"Oh, Peter!" said she, with a sigh of resignation, "you possess
absolutely no idea of proportion. Here we pay four shillings for
meat, and only eightpence for bread; had we spent less on luxuries
and more on necessaries we should have had money in hand instead
of--let me see!" and she began adding up the various items before
her with soft, quick little pats of her fingers on the table.
Presently, having found the total, she leaned back in her chair
and, summoning my attention with a tap of her pen, announced:
"We have spent nine shillings and tenpence, Peter!"
"Good, indeed!" said I.
"Leaving exactly--twopence over."
"A penny for you, and a penny for me."
"I fear I am a very bad housekeeper, Peter."
"On the contrary."
"You earn ten shillings a week."
"Well?"
"And here is exactly--twopence left--oh, Peter!"
"You are forgetting the tea and the beef, and--and the other
luxuries," said I, struck by the droop of her mouth.
"But you work so very, very hard, and earn so little and that
little--"
"I work that I may live, Charmian, and lo! I am alive."
"And dreadfully poor!"
"And ridiculously happy."
"I wonder why?" said she, beginning to draw designs on the page
before her.
"Indeed, though I have asked myself that question frequently
of late, I have as yet found no answer, unless it be my busy,
care-free life, with the warm sun about me and the voice of the
wind in the trees."
"Yes, perhaps that is it."
"And yet I don't know," I went on thoughtfully, "for now I come
to think of it, my life has always been busy and care-free, and I
have always loved the sun and the sound of wind in trees--yet,
like Horace, have asked 'What is Happiness?' and looked for it in
vain; and now, here--in this out-of-the-world spot, working as a
village smith, it has come to me all unbidden and unsought--which
is very strange!"
"Yes, Peter," said Charmian, still busy with her pen.
"Upon consideration I think my thanks are due to my uncle for
dying and leaving me penniless."
"Do you mean that he disinherited you?"
"In a way, yes; he left me his whole fortune provided that I
married a certain lady within the year."
"A certain lady?"
"The Lady Sophia Sefton, of Cambourne," said I.
Charmian's pen stopped in the very middle of a letter, and she
bent down to examine what she had been writing.
"Oh!" said she very softly, "the Lady Sophia Sefton of Cambourne?"
"Yes," said I.
"And--your cousin--Sir Maurice--were the conditions the same in
his case?"
"Precisely!"
"Oh!" said Charmian, just as softly as before, "and this lady
--she will not--marry you?"
"No," I answered.
"Are you quite--sure?"
"Certain!--you see, I never intend to ask her."
Charmian suddenly raised her head and looked at me,
"Why not, Peter?"
"Because, should I ever marry--a remote contingency, and most
improbable--I am sufficiently self-willed to prefer to exert my
own choice in the matter; moreover, this lady is a celebrated
toast, and it would be most repugnant to me that my wife's name
should ever have been bandied from mouth to mouth, and hiccoughed
out over slopping wineglasses--"
The pen slipped from Charmian's fingers to the floor, and before
I could pick it up she had forestalled me, so that when she
raised her head she was flushed with stooping.
"Have you ever seen this lady, Peter?"
"Never, but I have heard of her--who has not?"
"What have you heard?"
"That she galloped her horse up and down the steps of St. Paul's
Cathedral, for one thing."
"What more?"
"That she is proud, and passionate, and sudden of temper--in a
word, a virago!"
"Virago!" said Charmian, flinging up her head.
"Virago!" I nodded, "though she is handsome, I understand--in a
strapping way--and I have it on very excellent authority that she
is a black-browed goddess, a peach, and a veritable plum."
"'Strapping' is a hateful word, Peter!"
"But very descriptive."
"And--doesn't she interest you--a little, Peter?".
"Not in the least," said I.
"And, pray, why not?"
"Because I care very little for either peaches or plums."
"Or black-browed goddesses, Peter?"
"Not if she is big and strapping, and possesses a temper."
"I suppose--to such a philosopher as you--a woman or a goddess,
black-browed or not, can scarcely compare with, or hope to rival
an old book, can she, sir?"
"Why, that depends, Charmian."
"On what?"
"On the book!" said I.
Charmian rested her round elbows upon the table, and, setting her
chin in her hands, stared squarely at me.
"Peter," said she.
"Yes, Charmian?"
"If ever you did meet this lady--I think--"
"Well?"
"I know--"
"What?"
"That you would fall a very easy victim!"
"I think not," said I.
"You would be her slave in--a month--three weeks--or much less--"
"Preposterous!" I exclaimed.
"If she set herself to make you!"
"That would be very immodest!" said I; "besides, no woman can
make a man love her."
"Do your books teach you that, Peter?" Here, finding I did not
answer, she laughed and nodded her head at me. "You would be
head over ears in love before you knew it!"
"I think not," said I, smiling.
"You are the kind of man who would grow sick with love, and never
know what ailed him."
"Any man in such a condition would be a pitiful ass!" said I.
Charmian only laughed at me again, and went back to her scribbling.
"Then, if this lady married you," said she suddenly, "you would
be a gentleman of good position and standing?"
"Yes, I suppose so--and probably miserable."
"And rich, Peter?"
"I should have more than enough."
"Instead of being a village blacksmith--"
"With just enough, and absurdly happy and content," I added,
"which is far more desirable--at least I think so."
"Do you mean to say that you would rather--exist here, and make
horseshoes all your life, than--live, respected, and rich."
"And married to--"
"And married to the Lady Sophia?"
"Infinitely!" said I.
"Then your cousin, so far as you are concerned, is free to woo
and win her and your uncle's fortune?"
"And I wish him well of his bargain!" I nodded. "As for me,
I shall probably continue to live here, and make horseshoes
--wifeless and content."
"Is marriage so hateful to you?"
"In the abstract--no; for in my mind there exists a woman whom I
think I could love--very greatly; but, in the actual--yes,
because there is no woman in all the world that is like this
woman of my mind."
"Is she so flawlessly perfect--this imaginary woman?"
"She is one whom I would respect for her intellect."
"Yes."
"Whom I would honor for her proud virtue."
"Yes, Peter."
"Whom I would worship for her broad charity, her gentleness, and
spotless purity."
"Yes, Peter."
"And love with all my strength, for her warm, sweet womanhood--in
a word, she is the epitome of all that is true and womanly!"
"That is to say--as you understand such things, sir, and all your
knowledge of woman, and her virtues and failings, you have
learned from your books, therefore, misrepresented by history,
and distorted by romance, it is utterly false and unreal. And,
of course, this imaginary creature of yours is ethereal,
bloodless, sexless, unnatural, and quite impossible!"
Now, when she spoke thus, I laid down my pipe and stared, but,
before I could get my breath, she began again, with curling lip
and lashes that drooped disdainfully.
"I quite understand that there can be no woman worthy of Mr.
Peter Vibart--she whom he would honor with marriage must be
specially created for him! Ah! but some day a woman--a real,
live woman--will come into his life, and the touch of her hand,
the glance of her eyes, the warmth of her breath, will dispel
this poor, flaccid, misty creature of his imagination, who will
fade and fade, and vanish into nothingness. And when the real
woman has shown him how utterly false and impossible this dream
woman was--then, Mr. Peter Vibart, I hope she will laugh at you
--as I do, and turn her back upon you--as I do, and leave you
--for the very superior, very pedantic pedant that you are--and
scorn you--as I do, most of all because you are merely a
--creature!" With the word, she flung up her head and stamped
her foot at me, and turning, swept out through the open door
into the moonlight.
"Creature?" said I, and so sat staring at the table, and the
walls, and the floor, and the rafters in a blank amazement.
But in a while, my amazement growing, I went and stood in the
doorway, looking at Charmian, but saying nothing.
And, as I watched, she began to sing softly to herself, and,
putting up her hand, drew the comb from her hair so that it fell
down, rippling about her neck and shoulders. And, singing softly
thus, she shook her hair about her, so that I saw it curled far
below her waist; stooped her head, and, parting it upon her neck,
drew it over either shoulder, whence it flowed far down over her
bosom in two glorious waves, for the moon, peeping through the
rift in the leaves above, sent down her beams to wake small fires
in it, that came and went, and winked with her breathing.
"Charmian, you have glorious hair!" said I, speaking on the
impulse--a thing I rarely do.
But Charmian only combed her tresses, and went on singing to
herself.
"Charmian," said I again, "what did you mean when you called me
a--creature?"
Charmian went on singing.
"You called me a 'pedant' once before; to be told that I am
superior, also, is most disquieting. I fear my manner must be
very unfortunate to afford you such an opinion of me."
Charmian went on singing.
"Naturally I am much perturbed, and doubly anxious to know what
you wish me to understand by the epithet 'creature'?"
Charmian went on singing. Wherefore, seeing she did not intend
to answer me, I presently re-entered the cottage.
Now it is ever my custom, when at all troubled or put out in any
way, to seek consolation in my books, hence, I now took up my
Homer, and, trimming the candles, sat down at the table.
In a little while Charmian came in, still humming the air of her
song, and not troubling even to glance in my direction.
Some days before, at her request, I had brought her linen and
lace and ribands from Cranbrook, and these she now took out,
together with needle and cotton, and, sitting down at the
opposite side of the table, began to sew.
She was still humming, and this of itself distracted my mind from
the lines before me; moreover, my eye was fascinated by the gleam
of her flying needle, and I began to debate within myself what
she was making. It (whatever it might be) was ruffled, and edged
with lace, and caught here and there with little bows of blue
riband, and, from these, and divers other evidences, I had
concluded it to be a garment of some sort, and was casting about
in my mind to account for these bows of riband, when, glancing up
suddenly, she caught my eye; whereupon, for no reason in the
world, I felt suddenly guilty, to hide which I began to search
through my pockets for my pipe.
"On the mantelshelf!" said she.
"What is?"
"Your pipe!"
"Thank you!" said I, and reached it down.
"What are you reading?" she inquired; "is it of Helen or Aspasia
or Phryne?"
"Neither--it is the parting of Hector and Andromache," I answered.
"Is it very interesting?"
"Yes."
"Then why do your eyes wander so often from the page?"
"I know many of the lines by heart," said I. And having lighted
my pipe, I took up the book, and once more began to read. Yet I
was conscious, all the time, of Charmian's flashing needle, also
she had begun to hum again.
And, after I had endeavored to read, and Charmian had hummed for
perhaps five minutes, I lowered my book, and, sighing, glanced
at her.
"I am trying to read, Charmian."
"So I see."
"And your humming confuses me."
"It is very quiet outside, Peter."
"But I cannot read by moonlight, Charmian."
"Then--don't read, Peter." Here she nibbled her thread with
white teeth, and held up what she had been sewing to view the
effect of a bow of riband, with her head very much on one side.
And I inwardly wondered that she should spend so much care upon
such frippery--all senseless bows and laces.
"To hum is a very disturbing habit!" said I.
"To smoke an evil-smelling pipe is worse--much worse, Peter!"
"I beg your pardon!" said I, and laid the offending object back
upon the mantel.
"Are you angry, Peter?"
"Not in the least; I am only sorry that my smoking annoyed you
--had I known before--"
"It didn't annoy me in the least!"
"But from what you said I understood--"
"No, Peter, you did not understand; you never understand, and I
don't think you ever will understand anything but your Helens and
Phrynes--and your Latin and Greek philosophies, and that is what
makes you so very annoying, and so--so quaintly original!"
"But you certainly found fault with my pipe."
"Naturally!--didn't you find fault with my humming?"
"Really," said I, "really, I fail to see--"
"Of course you do!" sighed Charmian. Whereupon there fell a
silence between us, during which she sewed industriously, and I
went forth with brave Hector to face the mighty Achilles. But
my eye had traversed barely twenty lines when:
"Peter?"
"Yes?"
"Do you remember my giving you a locket?"
"Yes."
"Where is it?"
"Oh! I have it still--somewhere."
"Somewhere, sir?" she repeated, glancing at me with raised brows.
"Somewhere safe," said I, fixing my eyes upon my book.
"It had a riband attached, hadn't it?"
"Yes."
"A pink riband, if I remember--yes, pink."
"No--it was blue!" said I unguardedly.
"Are you sure, Peter?" And here, glancing up, I save that she
was watching me beneath her lashes.
"Yes," I answered; "that is--I think so."
"Then you are not sure?"
"Yes, I am," said I; "it was a blue riband," and I turned over a
page very ostentatiously.
"Oh!" said Charmian, and there was another pause, during which I
construed probably fifty lines or so.
"Peter?"
"Well?"
"Where did you say it was now--my locket?"
"I didn't say it was anywhere."
"No, you said it was 'somewhere'--in a rather vague sort of way,
Peter."
"Well, perhaps I did," said I, frowning at my book.
"It is not very valuable, but I prized it for association's sake,
Peter."
"Ah!--yes, to be sure," said I, feigning to be wholly absorbed.
"I was wondering if you ever--wear it, Peter?"
"Wear it!" I exclaimed, and glancing furtively down at myself, I
was relieved to see that there were no signs of a betraying blue
riband; "wear it!" said I again, "why should I wear it?"
"Why, indeed, Peter, unless it was because it was there to wear."
Suddenly she uttered an exclamation of annoyance, and, taking up
a candle, began looking about the floor.
"What have you lost?"
"My needle! I think it must have fallen under the table. and
needles are precious in this wilderness; won't you please help me
to find it?"
"With pleasure!" said I, getting down upon my hands and knees,
and together we began to hunt for the lost needle.
Now, in our search, it chanced that we drew near together, and
once her hand touched mine, and once her soft hair brushed my
cheek, and there stole over me a perfume like the breath of
violets, the fragrance that I always associated with her, faint
and sweet and alluring--so much so, that I drew back from further
chance of contact, and kept my eyes directed to the floor.
And, after I had sought vainly for some time, I raised my head
and looked at Charmian, to find her regarding me with a very
strange expression.
"What is it?" I inquired. "Have you found the needle?" Charmian
sat back on her heels, and laughed softly.
"Oh, yes, I've found the needle, Peter, that is--I never lost it."
"Why, then--what--what did you mean--?"
For answer, she raised her hand and pointed to my breast. Then,
glancing hurriedly down, I saw that the locket had slipped
forward through the bosom of my shirt, and hung in plain view. I
made an instinctive movement to hide it, but, hearing her laugh,
looked at her instead.
"So this was why you asked me to stoop to find your needle?"
"Yes, Peter."
"Then you--knew?"
"Of course I knew."
"Hum!" said I. A distant clock chimed eleven, and Charmian began
to fold away her work, seeing which, I rose, and took up my
candle. "And--pray--"
"Well?"
"And, pray," said I, staring hard at the flame of my candle, "how
did you happen to--find out--?"
"Very simply--I saw the riband round your neck days ago. Good
night, Peter!"
"Oh," said I. "Good night!"