We were sitting in the moonlight.
"Now," said Charmian, staring up at the luminous heaven, "let us
talk."
"Willingly," I answered; "let us talk of stars."
"No--let us talk of ourselves."
"As you please."
"Very well, you begin."
"Well--I am a blacksmith."
"Yes, you told me so before."
"And I make horseshoes--"
"He is a blacksmith, and makes horseshoes!" said Charmian,
nodding at the moon.
"And I live here, in this solitude, very contentedly; so that it
is only reasonable to suppose that I shall continue to live here,
and make horseshoes--though, really," I broke off, letting my
eyes wander from my companion's upturned face back to the glowing
sky, once more, "there is little I could tell you about so
commonplace a person as myself that is likely to interest you."
"No," said Charmian, "evidently not!" Here my gaze came down to
her face again so quickly that I fancied I detected the ghost of
a smile upon her lips.
"Then," said I, "by all means let us talk of something else."
"Yes," she agreed; "let us talk of the woman Charmian--Charmian
--Brown." A tress of hair had come loose, and hung low above her
brow, and in its shadow her, eyes seemed more elusive, more
mocking than ever, and, while our glances met, she put up a hand
and began to, wind this glossy tress round and round her finger.
"Well?" said she.
"Well," said I, "supposing you begin."
"But is she likely to interest you?"
"I think so--yes."
"Aren't you sure, then?"
"Quite sure--certainly."
"Then why don't you say so?"
"I thought you would take that for granted."
"A woman should take nothing for granted, sir."
"Then," said I, "supposing you begin."
"I've half a mind not to," she retorted, curling the tress of
hair again, and then, suddenly: "What do you think of Charmian
Brown?"
"I think of her as little as I can."
"Indeed, sir!"
"Indeed," said I.
"And why, pray?"
"Because," said I, knocking the ashes from my pipe, "because the
more I think about her the more incomprehensible she becomes."
"Have you known many women?"
"Very few," I confessed, "but--"
"But?"
"I am not altogether unfamiliar with the sex--for I have known a
great number--in books."
"Our blacksmith," said Charmian, addressing the moon again, "has
known many women--in books! His knowledge is, therefore,
profound!" and she laughed.
"May I ask why you laugh at me?"
"Oh!" said she, "don't you know that women in books and women out
of books are no more the same than day and night, or summer and
winter?"
"And yet there are thousands of women who exist for us in books
only, Laura, Beatrice, Trojan Helen, Aspasia, the glorious
Phryne, and hosts of others," I demurred.
"Yes; but they exist for us only as their historians permit them,
as their biographers saw, or imagined them. Would Petrarch ever
have permitted Laura to do an ungracious act, or anything which,
to his masculine understanding, seemed unfeminine; and would
Dante have mentioned it had Beatrice been guilty of one? A man
can no more understand a woman from the reading of books than he
can learn Latin or Greek from staring at the sky."
"Of that," said I, shaking my head, "of that I am not so sure."
"Then--personally--you know very little concerning women?" she
inquired.
"I have always been too busy," said I. Here Charmian turned to
look at me again.
"Too busy?" she repeated, as though she had not heard aright;
"too busy?"
"Much too busy!" Now, when I said this, she laughed, and then
she frowned, and then she laughed again.
"You would much rather make a--horseshoe than talk with a woman,
perhaps?"
"Yes, I think I would."
"Oh!" said Charmian, frowning again, but this time she did not
look at me.
"You see," I explained, turning my empty pipe over and over,
rather aimlessly, "when I make a horseshoe I take a piece of
iron and, having heated it, I bend and shape it, and with
every hammer-stroke I see it growing into what I would have
it--I am sure of it, from start to finish; now, with a woman
it is--different."
"You mean that you cannot bend, and shape her, like your
horseshoe?" still without looking towards me.
"I mean that--that I fear I should never be quite sure of a
--woman, as I am of my horseshoe."
"Why, you see," said Charmian, beginning to braid the tress of
hair, "a woman cannot, at any time, be said to resemble a
horseshoe--very much, can she?"
"Surely," said I, "surely you know what I mean--?"
"There are Laura and Beatrice and Helen and Aspasia and Phryne,
and hosts of others," said Charmian, nodding to the moon again.
"Oh, yes--our blacksmith has read of so many women in books that
he has no more idea of women out of books than I of Sanscrit."
And, in a little while, seeing I was silent, she condescended to
glance towards me:
"Then I suppose, under the circumstances, you have never been--in
love?"
"In love?" I repeated, and dropped my pipe.
"In love."
"The Lord forbid!"
"Why, pray?"
"Because Love is a disease--a madness, coming between a man and
his life's work. Love!" said I, "it is a calamity!"
"Never having been in love himself, our blacksmith, very
naturally, knows all about it!" said Charmian to the moon.
"I speak only of such things as I have read--" I began.
"More books!" she sighed.
"--words of men, much wiser than I--poets and philosophers,
written--"
"When they were old and gray-headed," Charmian broke in; "when
they were quite incapable of judging the matter--though many a
grave philosopher loved; now didn't he?"
"To be sure," said I, rather hipped, "Dionysius Lambienus, I
think, says somewhere that a woman with a big mouth is infinitely
sweeter in the kissing--and--"
"Do you suppose he read that in a book?" she inquired, glancing
at me sideways.
"Why, as to that," I answered, "a philosopher may love, but not
for the mere sake of loving."
"For whose sake then, I wonder?"
"A man who esteems trifles for their own sake is a trifler, but
one who values them, rather, for the deductions that may be drawn
from them--he is a philosopher."
Charmian rose, and stood looking down at me very strangely.
"So!" said she, throwing back her head, "so, throned in lofty
might, superior Mr. Smith thinks Love a trifle, does he?"
"My name is Vibart, as I think you know," said I, stung by her
look or her tone, or both.
"Yes," she answered, seeming to look down at me from an
immeasurable attitude, "but I prefer to know him, just now, as
Superior Mr. Smith."
"As you will," said I, and rose also; but, even then, though she
had to look up to me, I had the same inward conviction that her
eyes were regarding me from a great height; wherefore I,
attempted--quite unsuccessfully to light my pipe.
And after I had struck flint and steel vainly, perhaps a dozen
times, Charmian took the box from me, and, igniting the tinder,
held it for me while I lighted my tobacco.
"Thank you!" said I, as she returned the box, and then I saw that
she was smiling. "Talking of Charmian Brown--" I began.
"But we are not."
"Then suppose you begin?"
"Do you really wish to hear about that--humble person?"
"Very much!"
"Then you must know, in the first place, that she is old, sir,
dreadfully old!"
"But," said I, "she really cannot be more than twenty-three--or
four at the most."
"She is just twenty-one!" returned Charmian, rather hastily, I
thought.
"Quite a child!"
"No, indeed--it is experience that ages one--and by experience
she is quite--two hundred!"
"The wonder is that she still lives."
"Indeed it is!" "And, being of such a ripe age, it is probable
that she, at any rate, has--been in love."
"Scores of times!"
"Oh!" said I, puffing very hard at my pipe
"Or fancied so," said Charmian. "That," I replied, "that is a
very different thing!"
"Do you think so?"
"Well--isn't it?"
"Perhaps."
"Very well, then, continue, I beg."
"Now, this woman," Charmian went on, beginning to curl the tress
of hair again, "hating the world about her with its shams, its
hypocrisy, and cruelty, ran away from it all, one day, with a
villain."
"And why with a villain?"
"Because he was a villain!"
"That," said I, turning to look at her, "that I do not
understand!"
"No, I didn't suppose you would," she answered.
"Hum!" said I, rubbing my chin. "And why did you run away from
him?"
"Because he was a villain."
"That was very illogical!" said I.
"But very sensible, sir."
Here there fell a silence between us, and, as we walked, now and
then her gown would brush my knee, or her shoulder touch mine,
for the path was very narrow.
"And--did you--" I began suddenly, and stopped.
"Did I--what, sir?"
"Did you love him?" said I, staring straight in front of me.
"I--ran away from him."
"And--do you--love him?"
"I suppose," said Charmian, speaking very slowly, "I suppose you
cannot understand a woman hating and loving a man, admiring and
despising him, both at the same time?"
"No, I can't."
"Can you understand one glorying in the tempest that may destroy
her, riding a fierce horse that may crush her, or being attracted
by a will strong and masterful, before which all must yield or
break?"
"I think I can."
"Then," said Charmian, "this man is strong and wild and very
masterful, and so--I ran away with him."
"And do you--love him?"
We walked on some distance ere she answered:
"I--don't know."
"Not sure, then?"
"No."
After this we fell silent altogether, yet once, when I happened
to glance at her, I saw that her eyes were very bright beneath
the shadow of her drooping lashes, and that her lips were
smiling; and I pondered very deeply as to why this should be.
Re-entering the cottage, I closed the door, and waited the while
she lighted my candle.
And, having taken the candle from her hand, I bade her "Good
night," but paused at the door of my chamber.
"You feel--quite safe here?"
"Quite safe!"
"Despite the color of my hair and eyes--you have no fear of
--Peter Smith?"
"None!"
"Because--he is neither fierce nor wild nor masterful!"
"Because he is neither fierce nor wild," she echoed.
"Nor masterful!" said I.
"Nor masterful!" said Charmian, with averted head. So I opened
the door, but, even then, must needs turn back again.
"Do you think I am so very--different--from him?"
"As different as day from night, as the lamb from the wolf," said
she, without looking at me. "Good night, Peter!"
"Good night!" said I, and so, going into my room, I closed the
door behind me.
"A lamb!" said I, tearing off my neckcloth, and sat, for some
time listening to her footstep and the soft rustle of her
petticoats going to and fro.
"A lamb!" said I again, and slowly drew off my coat. As I did
so, a little cambric handkerchief fell to the floor, and I kicked
it, forthwith, into a corner.
"A lamb!" said I, for the third time, but, at this moment, came a
light tap upon the door.
"Yes?" said I, without moving.
"Oh, how is your injured thumb?"
"Thank you, it is as well as can be expected."
"Does it pain you very much?"
"It is not unbearable!" said I.
"Good night, Peter!" and I heard her move away. But presently
she was back again.
"Oh, Peter?"
"Well?"
"Are you frowning?"
"I--I think I was--why?"
"When you frown, you are very like--him, and have the same
square set of the mouth and chin, when you are angry--so don't,
please don't frown, Peter--Good night!"
"Good night, Charmian!" said I, and stooping, I picked up the
little handkerchief and thrust it under my pillow.