It seemed upon the whole even absurd that after a shock
so awful and a panic wild enough to cause people to expose
their very souls--for there were, of course, endless anecdotes
to be related afterwards, illustrative of grotesque terror,
cowardice, and utter abandonment of all shadows of convention--
that all should end in an anticlimax of trifling danger, upon
which, in a day or two, jokes might be made. Even the tramp
steamer had not been seriously injured, though its injuries
were likely to be less easy of repair than those of the
Meridiana.
"Still," as a passenger remarked, when she steamed into
the dock at Liverpool, "we might all be at the bottom of
the Atlantic Ocean this morning. Just think what columns
there would have been in the newspapers. Imagine Miss
Vanderpoel's being drowned."
"I was very rude to Louise, when I found her wringing
her hands over you, and I was rude to Blanche," Bettina
said to Mrs. Worthington. "In fact I believe I was rude to
a number of people that night. I am rather ashamed."
"You called me a donkey," said Blanche, "but it was the
best thing you could have done. You frightened me into
putting on my shoes, instead of trying to comb my hair with
them. It was startling to see you march into the stateroom,
the only person who had not been turned into a gibbering idiot.
I know I was gibbering, and I know Marie was."
"We both gibbered at the red-haired man when he came
in," said Marie. "We clutched at him and gibbered together.
Where is the red-haired man, Betty? Perhaps we made him
ill. I've not seen him since that moment."
"He is in the second cabin, I suppose," Bettina answered,
"but I have not seen him, either."
"We ought to get up a testimonial and give it to him,
because he did not gibber," said Blanche. "He was as rude
and as sensible as you were, Betty."
They did not see him again, in fact, at that time. He had
reasons of his own for preferring to remain unseen. The
truth was that the nearer his approach to his native shores,
the nastier, he was perfectly conscious, his temper became,
and he did not wish to expose himself by any incident which
might cause him stupidly and obviously to lose it.
The maid, Louise, however, recognised him among her
companions in the third-class carriage in which she travelled
to town. To her mind, whose opinions were regulated by
neatly arranged standards, he looked morose and shabbily
dressed. Some of the other second-cabin passengers had made
themselves quite smart in various, not too distinguished ways.
He had not changed his dress at all, and the large valise upon
the luggage rack was worn and battered as if with long and
rough usage. The woman wondered a little if he would address
her, and inquire after the health of her mistress. But,
being an astute creature, she only wondered this for an instant,
the next she realised that, for one reason or another, it was
clear that he was not of the tribe of second-rate persons who
pursue an accidental acquaintance with their superiors in
fortune, through sociable interchange with their footmen or
maids.
When the train slackened its speed at the platform of the
station, he got up, reaching down his valise and leaving the
carriage, strode to the nearest hansom cab, waving the porter
aside.
"Charing Cross," he called out to the driver, jumped in,
and was rattled away.
. . . . .
During the years which had passed since Rosalie Vanderpoel
first came to London as Lady Anstruthers, numbers of
huge luxurious hotels had grown up, principally, as it seemed,
that Americans should swarm into them and live at an expense
which reminded them of their native land. Such establishments
would never have been built for English people,
whose habit it is merely to "stop" at hotels, not to live in
them. The tendency of the American is to live in his hotel,
even though his intention may be only to remain in it two
days. He is accustomed to doing himself extremely well in
proportion to his resources, whether they be great or small,
and the comforts, as also the luxuries, he allows himself and
his domestic appendages are in a proportion much higher in
its relation to these resources than it would be were he English,
French, German, or Italians. As a consequence, he expects,
when he goes forth, whether holiday-making or on
business, that his hostelry shall surround him, either with
holiday luxuries and gaiety, or with such lavishness of comfort
as shall alleviate the wear and tear of business cares and
fatigues. The rich man demands something almost as good
as he has left at home, the man of moderate means something
much better. Certain persons given to regarding public wants
and desires as foundations for the fortune of business schemes
having discovered this, the enormous and sumptuous hotel
evolved itself from their astute knowledge of common facts.
At the entrances of these hotels, omnibuses and cabs, laden
with trunks and packages frequently bearing labels marked
with red letters "S. S. So-and-So, Stateroom--Hold--Baggage-
room," drew up and deposited their contents and burdens
at regular intervals. Then men with keen, and often humorous
faces or almost painfully anxious ones, their exceedingly
well-dressed wives, and more or less attractive and
vivacious-looking daughters, their eager little girls, and un-
English-looking little boys, passed through the corridors in
flocks and took possession of suites of rooms, sometimes for
twenty-four hours, sometimes for six weeks.
The Worthingtons took possession of such a suite in such
a hotel. Bettina Vanderpoel's apartments faced the Embankment.
From her windows she could look out at the broad
splendid, muddy Thames, slowly rolling in its grave, stately
way beneath its bridges, bearing with it heavy lumbering
barges, excited tooting little penny steamers and craft of
various shapes and sizes, the errand or burden of each meaning
a different story.
It had been to Bettina one of her pleasures of the finest
epicurean flavour to reflect that she had never had any brief
and superficial knowledge of England, as she had never been
to the country at all in those earlier years, when her knowledge
of places must necessarily have been always the incomplete
one of either a schoolgirl traveller or a schoolgirl resident,
whose views were limited by the walls of restriction built
around her.
If relations of the usual ease and friendliness had existed
between Lady Anstruthers and her family, Bettina would,
doubtless, have known her sister's adopted country well. It
would have been a thing so natural as to be almost inevitable,
that she would have crossed the Channel to spend her holidays
at Stornham. As matters had stood, however, the child
herself, in the days when she had been a child, had had most
definite private views on the subject of visits to England.
She had made up her young mind absolutely that she would
not, if it were decently possible to avoid it, set her foot upon
English soil until she was old enough and strong enough to
carry out what had been at first her passionately romantic
plans for discovering and facing the truth of the reason for
the apparent change in Rosy. When she went to England,she would
go to Rosy. As she had grown older, having in the course of
education and travel seen most Continental countries, she had
liked to think that she had saved, put aside for less hasty
consumption and more delicate appreciation of flavours, as it
were, the country she was conscious she cared for most.
"It is England we love, we Americans," she had said to
her father. "What could be more natural? We belong to
it--it belongs to us. I could never be convinced that the old
tie of blood does not count. All nationalities have come to us
since we became a nation, but most of us in the beginning
came from England. We are touching about it, too. We
trifle with France and labour with Germany, we sentimentalise
over Italy and ecstacise over Spain--but England we love.
How it moves us when we go to it, how we gush if we are
simple and effusive, how we are stirred imaginatively if we
are of the perceptive class. I have heard the commonest little
half-educated woman say the prettiest, clumsy, emotional
things about what she has seen there. A New England
schoolma'am, who has made a Cook's tour, will almost have
tears in her voice as she wanders on with her commonplaces
about hawthorn hedges and thatched cottages and white or
red farms. Why are we not unconsciously pathetic about
German cottages and Italian villas? Because we have not,
in centuries past, had the habit of being born in them. It
is only an English cottage and an English lane, whether white
with hawthorn blossoms or bare with winter, that wakes in
us that little yearning, grovelling tenderness that is so sweet.
It is only nature calling us home."
Mrs. Worthington came in during the course of the morning
to find her standing before her window looking out at
the Thames, the Embankment, the hansom cabs themselves,
with an absolutely serious absorption. This changed to a
smile as she turned to greet her.
"I am delighted," she said. "I could scarcely tell you
how much. The impression is all new and I am excited a
little by everything. I am so intensely glad that I have saved
it so long and that I have known it only as part of literature.
I am even charmed that it rains, and that the cabmen's
mackintoshes are shining and wet." She drew forward a chair, and
Mrs. Worthington sat down, looking at her with involuntary
admiration.
"You look as if you were delighted," she said. "Your
eyes--you have amazing eyes, Betty! I am trying to picture
to myself what Lady Anstruthers will feel when she sees
you. What were you like when she married?"
Bettina sat down, smiling and looking, indeed, quite
incredibly lovely. She was capable of a warmth and a sweetness
which were as embracing as other qualities she possessed
were powerful.
"I was eight years old," she said. "I was a rude little
girl, with long legs and a high, determined voice. I know I
was rude. I remember answering back."
"I seem to have heard that you did not like your brother-
in-law, and that you were opposed to the marriage."
"Imagine the undisciplined audacity of a child of eight
`opposing' the marriage of her grown-up sister. I was quite
capable of it. You see in those days we had not been trained
at all (one had only been allowed tremendous liberty), and
interfered conversationally with one's elders and betters at any
moment. I was an American little girl, and American little
girls were really--they really were!" with a laugh, whose
musical sound was after all wholly non-committal.
"You did not treat Sir Nigel Anstruthers as one of your
betters."
"He was one of my elders, at all events, and becomingness
of bearing should have taught me to hold my little
tongue. I am giving some thought now to the kind of thing
I must invent as a suitable apology when I find him a really
delightful person, full of virtues and accomplishments. Perhaps
he has a horror of me."
"I should like to be present at your first meeting," Mrs.
Worthington reflected. "You are going down to Stornham
to-morrow?"
"That is my plan. When I write to you on my arrival, I
will tell you if I encountered the horror." Then, with a
swift change of subject and a lifting of her slender, velvet
line of eyebrow, "I am only deploring that I have not time
to visit the Tower."
Mrs. Worthington was betrayed into a momentary glance
of uncertainty, almost verging in its significance on a gasp.
"The Tower? Of London? Dear Betty!"
Bettina's laugh was mellow with revelation.
"Ah!" she said. "You don't know my point of view; it's
plain enough. You see, when I delight in these things, I think
I delight most in my delight in them. It means that I am
almost having the kind of feeling the fresh American souls
had who landed here thirty years ago and revelled in the
resemblance to Dickens's characters they met with in the streets,
and were historically thrilled by the places where people's
heads were chopped off. Imagine their reflections on Charles
I., when they stood in Whitehall gazing on the very spot
where that poor last word was uttered--`Remember.' And
think of their joy when each crossing sweeper they gave
disproportionate largess to, seemed Joe All Alones in the
slightest disguise."
"You don't mean to say----" Mrs. Worthington was
vaguely awakening to the situation.
"That the charm of my visit, to myself, is that I realise
that I am rather like that. I have positively preserved
something because I have kept away. You have been here so
often and know things so well, and you were even so sophisticated
when you began, that you have never really had the
flavours and emotions. I am sophisticated, too, sophisticated
enough to have cherished my flavours as a gourmet tries to
save the bouquet of old wine. You think that the Tower is
the pleasure of housemaids on a Bank Holiday. But it quite
makes me quiver to think of it," laughing again. "That I
laugh, is the sign that I am not as beautifully, freshly capable
of enjoyment as those genuine first Americans were, and in
a way I am sorry for it."
Mrs. Worthington laughed also, and with an enjoyment.
"You are very clever, Betty," she said.
"No, no," answered Bettina, "or, if I am, almost
everybody is clever in these days. We are nearly all of us
comparatively intelligent."
"You are very interesting at all events, and the Anstruthers
will exult in you. If they are dull in the country, you
will save them."
"I am very interested, at all events," said Bettina, "and
interest like mine is quite passe. A clever American who lives
in England, and is the pet of duchesses, once said to me (he
always speaks of Americans as if they were a distant and
recently discovered species), `When they first came over
they were a novelty. Their enthusiasm amused people, but
now, you see, it has become vieux jeu. Young women, whose
specialty was to be excited by the Tower of London and
Westminster Abbey, are not novelties any longer. In fact, it's
been done, and it's done for as a specialty.' And I am excited
about the Tower of London. I may be able to restrain my
feelings at the sight of the Beef Eaters, but they will upset
me a little, and I must brace myself, I must indeed."
"Truly, Betty?" said Mrs. Worthington, regarding her
with curiosity, arising from a faint doubt of her entire
seriousness,mingled with a fainter doubt of her entire levity.
Betty flung out her hands in a slight, but very involuntary-
looking, gesture, and shook her head.
"Ah!" she said, "it was all true, you know. They were all
horribly real--the things that were shuddered over and
sentimentalised about. Sophistication, combined with
imagination, makes them materialise again, to me, at least, now I
am here. The gulf between a historical figure and a man or
woman who could bleed and cry out in human words was
broad when one was at school. Lady Jane Grey, for instance,
how nebulous she was and how little one cared. She seemed
invented merely to add a detail to one's lesson in English
history. But, as we drove across Waterloo Bridge, I caught
a glimpse of the Tower, and what do you suppose I began
to think of? It was monstrous. I saw a door in the Tower
and the stone steps, and the square space, and in the chill
clear, early morning a little slender, helpless girl led out, a
little, fair, real thing like Rosy, all alone--everyone she
belonged to far away, not a man near who dared utter a word
of pity when she turned her awful, meek, young, desperate
eyes upon him. She was a pious child, and, no doubt, she
lifted her eyes to the sky. I wonder if it was blue and its
blueness broke her heart, because it looked as if it might have
pitied such a young, patient girl thing led out in the fair
morning to walk to the hacked block and give her trembling pardon
to the black-visored man with the axe, and then `commending
her soul to God' to stretch her sweet slim neck out upon it."
"Oh, Betty, dear!" Mrs. Worthington expostulated.
Bettina sprang to her and took her hand in pretty appeal.
"I beg pardon! I beg pardon, I really do," she exclaimed.
"I did not intend deliberately to be painful. But that--
beneath the sophistication--is something of what I bring to
England."